a tribute to my self-loathing
I just finished a 3.5 hour game of Monopoly with my sister. at one point I owned the entire board. but then I got assessed.
Joseph, George and I walked a good three miles yesterday. George isn't even used to walking to his car. I took it easy today, as in I didn't do eight hundred pushups or lift some weights or run or walk or today, and my body is all inner itchy and twitchy. I also love feminine fat in the right places. and when it's all sexy and shit. like Mindy. that girl is such a babe. my hips are good since I still think my calling is in motherhood. and Literature of the Americas. hahahaha
okay. this is a big deal because I love myself and that doesn't always happen. it's so funny! before I was healthy, I was always bitching about how fat I was. and of course I think I was crazy. because now all I see is this olive little bean-ass in the mirror. do you know what I mean? maybe you don't. anyway, I've never been fat in my life, but I've never felt pretty. basically, I'm an idiot because I've always been thin. and now I'm finished. I'm not going to criticize those girls that take pride in depriving themselves of food because maybe one day they will learn the art of true self-discipline and enjoy good food in good amounts.
I don't know why I'm updating again. we're going to the beach in a few hours. Joseph and I will walk some more, get drunk some more, eat at Naturally's some more (even though he lost his wallet!), throw sand some more, race some more (he runs sooooooooooooooooooooo fast) and eventually engage in you know what some more, and lastly sleep some more while the condo is nice and quiet because Alex and Laura are out talking about cars and scarfing some animal's carcass.
AHHHHH VANESSA! haha I love her. all the Nering girls get my approval, but Vanessa is the most like me. :D or I'm the most like Vanessa.
anyway, it's her birthday, and we're celebrating it.
I spent a few hours on applications today. pfft. and my mom is all right with me going to Florida. she is twisted. she is so crazy. so goddamn CRAZY.
Joseph, George and I walked a good three miles yesterday. George isn't even used to walking to his car. I took it easy today, as in I didn't do eight hundred pushups or lift some weights or run or walk or today, and my body is all inner itchy and twitchy. I also love feminine fat in the right places. and when it's all sexy and shit. like Mindy. that girl is such a babe. my hips are good since I still think my calling is in motherhood. and Literature of the Americas. hahahaha
okay. this is a big deal because I love myself and that doesn't always happen. it's so funny! before I was healthy, I was always bitching about how fat I was. and of course I think I was crazy. because now all I see is this olive little bean-ass in the mirror. do you know what I mean? maybe you don't. anyway, I've never been fat in my life, but I've never felt pretty. basically, I'm an idiot because I've always been thin. and now I'm finished. I'm not going to criticize those girls that take pride in depriving themselves of food because maybe one day they will learn the art of true self-discipline and enjoy good food in good amounts.
I don't know why I'm updating again. we're going to the beach in a few hours. Joseph and I will walk some more, get drunk some more, eat at Naturally's some more (even though he lost his wallet!), throw sand some more, race some more (he runs sooooooooooooooooooooo fast) and eventually engage in you know what some more, and lastly sleep some more while the condo is nice and quiet because Alex and Laura are out talking about cars and scarfing some animal's carcass.
AHHHHH VANESSA! haha I love her. all the Nering girls get my approval, but Vanessa is the most like me. :D or I'm the most like Vanessa.
anyway, it's her birthday, and we're celebrating it.
I spent a few hours on applications today. pfft. and my mom is all right with me going to Florida. she is twisted. she is so crazy. so goddamn CRAZY.