Sometimes solutions aren't so simple; sometimes goodbye's the only way.
So, I haven't properly updated in, like...forever, but my entry will be mostly MNFF related, because it's mainly what I have going on at the moment.
I have come to the conclusion that I am a complete idiot. Yes, I have just now realised this. Just now.
But how did I come to this stark epiphany? Well, the answer came via PM and from a little bit of everywhere. My problem lies with how much I have decided to do and my inability to refuse more work. In the past three months, I have:
-Started a long-term chaptered fic. Fine. I've done that already, and it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.
-Started another chaptered fic. Okay, I can work with this. It's going to be a shorter one, about 45K, so not a big deal still.
-Conceived a plot for a rather interesting AU story that may or may not end up longer than a one-shot. Nevertheless, it will take meticulous plot doctoring before I could even consider posting it. Now, my resources are starting to wear thin.
-Been asked to participate in QSQ judging by one mod. Okay, I was expecting this. The category isn't overtly large, and deciding a winner can't be that hard.
-Been asked to participate in another QSQ category by a second mod. Again, fine. There are not very many nominations. How hard could this be? I can do this.
-Adopted a few in-house activities in order to poke some of our lazy Claw asses into gear. I've always done this.
-Signed up for SPEW Secret Swap. I can write a one-shot in a day or two. No problem.
And then I looked at this list. Oh my bloody fuck, what have I done? How could one human being do all of this? Sure, I don't work that much, but having a roomie is seriously cramping my ability to get stuff done. I never realised how much I rely on solitude to get stuff done until I didn't have it anymore. Crap. Crap on a stick.
Now, this is all starting to spill over into RL. With all of this stuff in my head, I can't even freaking remember to do simple things like take the trash to the curb or write down my hours worked for the week so I can calculate my personal budget. Fuck. I'm a maniacal sadist, aren't I?
So, upon review, I have decided that I am going to put aside my AU story for later. I already am about 2000 words in, so it won't be forgotten or lost in the shuffle. I really feel strongly about this one, so I can't just turn it off in my head. I have also decided that my Harmony chaptered story will take precedence over Written in the Stars for now. My Harmony can be written in a few months' time with more attention from me, but Written in the Stars will literally take years to finish. Plus, I've sort of lost my single-minded attachment to it.
Also, I plan to get my reading done for QSQ judging as soon as possible. I really don't have time to piss around with that, as it is much more important than anything else I have going on for MNFF. My stories can wait, and the queue can survive without my name in the Most Recent list at any given point.
I suppose I just wrote this whole thing to straighten out my own priorities by talking it out. I need some perspective on this stuff, and I'm sure you all will give it to me.
/ramble
I have come to the conclusion that I am a complete idiot. Yes, I have just now realised this. Just now.
But how did I come to this stark epiphany? Well, the answer came via PM and from a little bit of everywhere. My problem lies with how much I have decided to do and my inability to refuse more work. In the past three months, I have:
-Started a long-term chaptered fic. Fine. I've done that already, and it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.
-Started another chaptered fic. Okay, I can work with this. It's going to be a shorter one, about 45K, so not a big deal still.
-Conceived a plot for a rather interesting AU story that may or may not end up longer than a one-shot. Nevertheless, it will take meticulous plot doctoring before I could even consider posting it. Now, my resources are starting to wear thin.
-Been asked to participate in QSQ judging by one mod. Okay, I was expecting this. The category isn't overtly large, and deciding a winner can't be that hard.
-Been asked to participate in another QSQ category by a second mod. Again, fine. There are not very many nominations. How hard could this be? I can do this.
-Adopted a few in-house activities in order to poke some of our lazy Claw asses into gear. I've always done this.
-Signed up for SPEW Secret Swap. I can write a one-shot in a day or two. No problem.
And then I looked at this list. Oh my bloody fuck, what have I done? How could one human being do all of this? Sure, I don't work that much, but having a roomie is seriously cramping my ability to get stuff done. I never realised how much I rely on solitude to get stuff done until I didn't have it anymore. Crap. Crap on a stick.
Now, this is all starting to spill over into RL. With all of this stuff in my head, I can't even freaking remember to do simple things like take the trash to the curb or write down my hours worked for the week so I can calculate my personal budget. Fuck. I'm a maniacal sadist, aren't I?
So, upon review, I have decided that I am going to put aside my AU story for later. I already am about 2000 words in, so it won't be forgotten or lost in the shuffle. I really feel strongly about this one, so I can't just turn it off in my head. I have also decided that my Harmony chaptered story will take precedence over Written in the Stars for now. My Harmony can be written in a few months' time with more attention from me, but Written in the Stars will literally take years to finish. Plus, I've sort of lost my single-minded attachment to it.
Also, I plan to get my reading done for QSQ judging as soon as possible. I really don't have time to piss around with that, as it is much more important than anything else I have going on for MNFF. My stories can wait, and the queue can survive without my name in the Most Recent list at any given point.
I suppose I just wrote this whole thing to straighten out my own priorities by talking it out. I need some perspective on this stuff, and I'm sure you all will give it to me.
/ramble