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staying the night at my dads house for the first time on a school night since my sophomore year
i don't like it at all
I can't sleep here
because when i am here I know it is because my mom doesn't want me there
she scared me tonight
i don't know what i am going to do
i want to go home
but i don't know where that is anymore
i want to be with my mom
but i can't anymore
this fight was too big
i don't know if i can ever go back

he deleted my paper
the one i worked so hard on
he did it on purpose
i asked him not to
she didn't believe me
he wouldn't let my use the computer to do it again
then my world sort of ended
she told me to come here
i didn't want to
i would rather have just gotten an F
I am going to anyway
the new paper is horrible
i couldn't concentrate
oh well
maybe my teacher will understand and let me redo it
i wrote her a letter to explain why it sucked so bad
i didnt even do a reference page
oh well

i wrote my mom an e-mail
i hope she still loves me
she really might not
and thats scary
she had such anger in her eyes
it was like there was fire inside of her
i have never been so scared
but i just wanted to grab her and hug her and make it all go away
but i couldn't
and it didn't
and now i am here
i just want my life to be normal again
i want my parents to love each other
and i want them to love me
but it doesn't work like that anymore
oh well

i guess i better go do the rest of my homework since i can't sleep
well...i guess thats all