Bonne Anniversaire a nous!
So yeah yesterday was fun.
I got up and went with some friends to have lunch with Joe. We went to the Olive Garden. Taylor is letting us call him Joe now that we graduated. It's going being his favorite history student. Yep I'm a high school graduate and still teacher's pet.
Then I came home and started making... dun dun dun... dinner. Bill and I had our 8th month anniversary so I made him sweet and sour pork. I forgot he didn't like pineapple. It was still good though. I also made rice and crescent rolls. Oh and there was broccoli and carrots. For dessert I made double chocolate brownies with Ghirardelli chocolate. Even Martha Stewart would have to call these a good thing. In fact, I bought ice cream but he didn't eat it cause he wanted another brownie. Then I had to clean up the kitchen... which I still haven't finished. We went out for a walk. It was nice out last night. We also walked around Barnes and Noble's cause we did that on our first date. It was just so cute.
It just seems a little bittersweet now. I mean next month he's in a Africa and by September we're in school. Different schools. Not that seperate schools is anything new to us. I'm just glad that I didn't start thinking about this until today.
Don't get me wrong I really had a lot of fun last night and I love being with him, but I don't know. I just don't like how much of it feels uncertain. I know I'm the one who wants to be allowed to date other people at the U of I. But I can't stand the thought of losing him. I know I'm 18 years old and I shouldn't be thinking that one relationship is the end of the world. But you know me I worry. What if it is? I've paranoided myself into thinking that if I screw this up then that is it. Grr. Why do I do this? I know that he loves me. I don't question that at all. I... I ... don't know. Maybe I should study astrology instead of astronomy because I would love to know the future. I know wouldn't we all. But lately I seem obessed with it.
College is right there. I'm a college girl. That sounds so wrong. I mean it must have some perks. Aren't college girls the most sought after population in the US? I'm probably just making that up... but doesn't it sound good? Well this is a long post and I need to go shopping. And even if I am sought after I've already been caught. Sorry. I have no desire to be let go.
Taste and Fireworks today... I get to go downtown!
I got up and went with some friends to have lunch with Joe. We went to the Olive Garden. Taylor is letting us call him Joe now that we graduated. It's going being his favorite history student. Yep I'm a high school graduate and still teacher's pet.
Then I came home and started making... dun dun dun... dinner. Bill and I had our 8th month anniversary so I made him sweet and sour pork. I forgot he didn't like pineapple. It was still good though. I also made rice and crescent rolls. Oh and there was broccoli and carrots. For dessert I made double chocolate brownies with Ghirardelli chocolate. Even Martha Stewart would have to call these a good thing. In fact, I bought ice cream but he didn't eat it cause he wanted another brownie. Then I had to clean up the kitchen... which I still haven't finished. We went out for a walk. It was nice out last night. We also walked around Barnes and Noble's cause we did that on our first date. It was just so cute.
It just seems a little bittersweet now. I mean next month he's in a Africa and by September we're in school. Different schools. Not that seperate schools is anything new to us. I'm just glad that I didn't start thinking about this until today.
Don't get me wrong I really had a lot of fun last night and I love being with him, but I don't know. I just don't like how much of it feels uncertain. I know I'm the one who wants to be allowed to date other people at the U of I. But I can't stand the thought of losing him. I know I'm 18 years old and I shouldn't be thinking that one relationship is the end of the world. But you know me I worry. What if it is? I've paranoided myself into thinking that if I screw this up then that is it. Grr. Why do I do this? I know that he loves me. I don't question that at all. I... I ... don't know. Maybe I should study astrology instead of astronomy because I would love to know the future. I know wouldn't we all. But lately I seem obessed with it.
College is right there. I'm a college girl. That sounds so wrong. I mean it must have some perks. Aren't college girls the most sought after population in the US? I'm probably just making that up... but doesn't it sound good? Well this is a long post and I need to go shopping. And even if I am sought after I've already been caught. Sorry. I have no desire to be let go.
Taste and Fireworks today... I get to go downtown!