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Back to this feeling of coming or going. Not in life, but in general with other human beings. I'm so soft and I feel like I'll never be able to say no unless it comes down to being too much to bare. I think that determining the truth is all internal revelation. I am my own worst enemy/ Cos if I'm not making someone happy, I'm making myself into this loser that sits in front of her computer and cries because she can't ever do anything right, because she thinks so far ahead that she'll end anything before it begins or shut it down right before it gets good. I'll tell myself there is no other company like my own but anticipate never being left alone.