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Things:
1. I am still doing that silly thing where I get upset because the doctor doesn't like me. Which isn't even true; he does like me, but not in the way I want him to. He called me today and was in one of his moods, which means he doesn't say anything unless asked direct questions. I guess I take it personally when he does not want to talk.
2. I have two new dogs. Sort of. They showed up at my house friday and have not left. One is mostly beagle, part dachshund female in heat, the other is a brown/tan intact male less than a year old. The male is about the same size as the beagle but taller and very skinny. He has a few scabby wounds that Dan thinks are from shot, as if someone had shot at him to make him go away, not to kill him. He is limping on his front left leg today, but was not limping yesterday. What to do? They are both friendly but I don't want the female attracting all kinds of horny male dogs here, and I don't want puppies. The male has got some health issues (limping, skinny, shot pellets still inside him?) and I'd have to get him looked at it if I was going to keep him. I'll call the shelter to see if anyone is missing them, maybe call some local vets to get prices for exams, spay/neuter.
3. I've missed all but 2 or 3 of Veda's pees today, which means she has been peeing on the floor. She even peed on me while I was standing up holding her which is very unusual. I take her to the bathroom and hold her to pee, whereupon she insists that she doesn't have to go, then she pees on the floor five minutes later.
4. I was getting kind of depressed over the whole vegan thing, imagining a life consigned to munching on raw celery sticks (which I always have to force myself to eat, so I look like I'm enjoying it, but I really hate celery sticks) but I took out my polynesian cookbook and am reminded of endless possibilities. I forgot how much I love southeast asian cooking. Regional ingredients are somewhat of a problem, but can be substituted for. Lots of the recipes in the book involve meat, but they would easily work with tofu or tempeh. And there's tons of vegetable or lentil based dishes. I can't wait!
5. I'm thinking about joining an intentional community? I am very vague with my ideas thus far, but it has become apparent that raising a child in virtual isolation is bad for both the mother and the child. Something really needs to change here. Spending all day alone is bad bad bad. Our sporadic trips to town don't make up for it. I don't think even cooking and gardening will complete this picture. I mean, cooking and gardening are great, but are still better done in company. And I think Veda is going to need to be around other children. And, I am miserable here all by myself. I have had to revise my plans for going to school as I'm not willing to leave Veda at a daycare for extended periods. So if I'm not going to school, I need to do something. An intentional community could possibly be a very good idea, if a bit radical. I have to do some more research, and maybe recruit my older sister to use her social connections in Austin TX to get some information. It's a very new mindset for me, to look at myself as an active, rather than passive, character in all this. I've continually felt that I'm (more or less) a victim of circumstance. As if I have no choice. That's why I'm here in West Virginia. It happened due to factors outside my control. Same with baby (more or less). But maybe I do have a choice.
1. I am still doing that silly thing where I get upset because the doctor doesn't like me. Which isn't even true; he does like me, but not in the way I want him to. He called me today and was in one of his moods, which means he doesn't say anything unless asked direct questions. I guess I take it personally when he does not want to talk.
2. I have two new dogs. Sort of. They showed up at my house friday and have not left. One is mostly beagle, part dachshund female in heat, the other is a brown/tan intact male less than a year old. The male is about the same size as the beagle but taller and very skinny. He has a few scabby wounds that Dan thinks are from shot, as if someone had shot at him to make him go away, not to kill him. He is limping on his front left leg today, but was not limping yesterday. What to do? They are both friendly but I don't want the female attracting all kinds of horny male dogs here, and I don't want puppies. The male has got some health issues (limping, skinny, shot pellets still inside him?) and I'd have to get him looked at it if I was going to keep him. I'll call the shelter to see if anyone is missing them, maybe call some local vets to get prices for exams, spay/neuter.
3. I've missed all but 2 or 3 of Veda's pees today, which means she has been peeing on the floor. She even peed on me while I was standing up holding her which is very unusual. I take her to the bathroom and hold her to pee, whereupon she insists that she doesn't have to go, then she pees on the floor five minutes later.
4. I was getting kind of depressed over the whole vegan thing, imagining a life consigned to munching on raw celery sticks (which I always have to force myself to eat, so I look like I'm enjoying it, but I really hate celery sticks) but I took out my polynesian cookbook and am reminded of endless possibilities. I forgot how much I love southeast asian cooking. Regional ingredients are somewhat of a problem, but can be substituted for. Lots of the recipes in the book involve meat, but they would easily work with tofu or tempeh. And there's tons of vegetable or lentil based dishes. I can't wait!
5. I'm thinking about joining an intentional community? I am very vague with my ideas thus far, but it has become apparent that raising a child in virtual isolation is bad for both the mother and the child. Something really needs to change here. Spending all day alone is bad bad bad. Our sporadic trips to town don't make up for it. I don't think even cooking and gardening will complete this picture. I mean, cooking and gardening are great, but are still better done in company. And I think Veda is going to need to be around other children. And, I am miserable here all by myself. I have had to revise my plans for going to school as I'm not willing to leave Veda at a daycare for extended periods. So if I'm not going to school, I need to do something. An intentional community could possibly be a very good idea, if a bit radical. I have to do some more research, and maybe recruit my older sister to use her social connections in Austin TX to get some information. It's a very new mindset for me, to look at myself as an active, rather than passive, character in all this. I've continually felt that I'm (more or less) a victim of circumstance. As if I have no choice. That's why I'm here in West Virginia. It happened due to factors outside my control. Same with baby (more or less). But maybe I do have a choice.