Feb 07, 2008 14:25
I was talking to a friend this morning and came to the realization that people were right when they said "College is the best time of your life!" Well, they were correct only partially. I would not exactly want to go back to that time completely, however I find that a part of me wants the simplicity of that time back. Talking to Kris this morning I realize that the ups and downs of 'real life' were largely missing in out life at University. We were as strong or week, as busy or free, as stressed or relaxed as we wanted to be. Very little would act upon our lives to effect them in a way that we would have to struggle to keep up. Today both Kris and I find ourselves effected by powers and forces outside of our own control, tossing our life tipsy turvy. The details are not that important, but the realization is; From here on its always a swim upstream.
If I think about it school was a 16 year life style that I was a professional of by the end. The real world has only had me for 2.5 years and even now I am still protected from some major difficulties. So, its no wonder that I haven't quite found my sea legs quite yet. Although I don't struggle very much, I find hurdles and challenges more exhausting then I did in school. Mostly because in school they would come in batches, in the real world they are a continuous process. Maybe somewhere along the way I will become more comfortable with the turbulence flow. I think keeping me on my toes is not an all together bad thing, but my reaction time just has to decrease! At the end all of this will make sense because a mass balance on this life will be archived. At least as much as possible before I throw in another variable. But, it will never be so structured or maneuverable as it was before because I am not the only force acting on it anymore.