:::update.fuck:::
you want a fucking update? Well here's your fucking update! Like it or not, I don't give a shit.
I've been drinking for 5 days straight, and I'm having a great time. Average amounf of beer is about 5 pints of guinness a night, yeah it's good. I got a job too. Looks like a good place to work, fun, sports related, and what I enjoy doing. So I'll be back working in a week. I'm having the time of my fucking life now though. Going out drinking, sleeping in, playing soccer, and yeah, I just don't give a fuck.
What I've found out in the last few weeks is that people will talk to me about anything and everything. I now walk up to random people in the bar and talk about the most obscure shit just to see if they'll continue talking to me, and they always do. Damn, how come I never figured this out before. Apparently I'm a pretty interesting person and hold some some great conversations. That being said, I'm lonely. I have all these great things happening to me, and no one to share them with. No one to even discuss them with. I love having my new friends, but friends are people you talk to and generalize with, not people you share intimate shit with. I miss that.
I'm looking for you, but I'm going to stop. Because you'll show up when I least expect it. I know it. I have contemplated going back to my old ways, but I won't. I'm going to drive forward, and look to the future. That's where you'll be, I know it. My lessons have been learned, and you will reap the rewards of them.
As for YOU, good luck. You had your chance, and now it's past. What else is there to say?
A friend said one of the nicest things to me the other day, and yes, I'm going to tell you what he said.
"You are one of the nicest people around, and you're a very good looking guy, you just don't know it. You need to take the opportunities when they come up, and they come up very often you just never realize it. You can be with anyone you want, trust me, you can, I know it for a fact."
Thanks dude. You're a true friend.
I've been drinking for 5 days straight, and I'm having a great time. Average amounf of beer is about 5 pints of guinness a night, yeah it's good. I got a job too. Looks like a good place to work, fun, sports related, and what I enjoy doing. So I'll be back working in a week. I'm having the time of my fucking life now though. Going out drinking, sleeping in, playing soccer, and yeah, I just don't give a fuck.
What I've found out in the last few weeks is that people will talk to me about anything and everything. I now walk up to random people in the bar and talk about the most obscure shit just to see if they'll continue talking to me, and they always do. Damn, how come I never figured this out before. Apparently I'm a pretty interesting person and hold some some great conversations. That being said, I'm lonely. I have all these great things happening to me, and no one to share them with. No one to even discuss them with. I love having my new friends, but friends are people you talk to and generalize with, not people you share intimate shit with. I miss that.
I'm looking for you, but I'm going to stop. Because you'll show up when I least expect it. I know it. I have contemplated going back to my old ways, but I won't. I'm going to drive forward, and look to the future. That's where you'll be, I know it. My lessons have been learned, and you will reap the rewards of them.
As for YOU, good luck. You had your chance, and now it's past. What else is there to say?
A friend said one of the nicest things to me the other day, and yes, I'm going to tell you what he said.
"You are one of the nicest people around, and you're a very good looking guy, you just don't know it. You need to take the opportunities when they come up, and they come up very often you just never realize it. You can be with anyone you want, trust me, you can, I know it for a fact."
Thanks dude. You're a true friend.