I can't believe it....
... I cut myself shaving. I haven't done that in forever. The worst part is that tomorrow morning I have an audition and I was going to wear a skirt... now I have to totally re-think my outfit... I have very little that would be considered business casual, and that is the dress code. dag nab it. Owell... I'll just wing it I guess.
Another thing that is bothering me is the sucky-ness that is the holiday season. I haven't had a good Thanksgiving in years. Even the weird Thanksgiving I had in London last year ranks higher than most. I am so wicked pissed that "the most wonderful time of the year" is not wonderful at all. I don't really get along with my dad... but it would seem I'll be spending this Thursday with him and my sister... lets hope we keep the drama at a minimum. But I will say that any drama that may occur with my dad, can't even compare with how much I don't want to be at my moms this year.
I have held out for year for my mom to just once, put Carolyn and I first. Why does she, year after year, choose to be miserable with a husband she doesn't love, on a holiday she could make wonderful. She always says she refuses to choose between her children and her husband... but its clear shes made her choice. She always calls him a lost dog, that can't function without her... its like, because she knows Carolyn and I won't self destruct if shes not around, she thinks she can just pretend like we don't exist on holidays... I hate it... I hate him... all of us, including my mom know she wants a divorce (shes talked about it almost weekly for years...), but she wont do it because she "would feel to guilty" about leaving someone so helpless. WTF?
I hate Thanksgiving... maybe someday it wont suck... but at the same time how can it ever be okay when my whole family is a big steaming pile of crap. And if my mom stays with whats his butt, I can say that I wouldn't come home for the holidays... seeing as it can't be home if he's around.
On another note, I found an earwig in my hamsters cage bedding (it was still in the bag...) so I called the company, and they sent me a whole case for free. So cool. This bedding costs like 14.99 per bag (it the good for the environment kind with oder control...) and now I have 6 bags... so great. I never have to buy it again... sweet. I guess thats one good thing thats happened this time of year...
Another thing that is bothering me is the sucky-ness that is the holiday season. I haven't had a good Thanksgiving in years. Even the weird Thanksgiving I had in London last year ranks higher than most. I am so wicked pissed that "the most wonderful time of the year" is not wonderful at all. I don't really get along with my dad... but it would seem I'll be spending this Thursday with him and my sister... lets hope we keep the drama at a minimum. But I will say that any drama that may occur with my dad, can't even compare with how much I don't want to be at my moms this year.
I have held out for year for my mom to just once, put Carolyn and I first. Why does she, year after year, choose to be miserable with a husband she doesn't love, on a holiday she could make wonderful. She always says she refuses to choose between her children and her husband... but its clear shes made her choice. She always calls him a lost dog, that can't function without her... its like, because she knows Carolyn and I won't self destruct if shes not around, she thinks she can just pretend like we don't exist on holidays... I hate it... I hate him... all of us, including my mom know she wants a divorce (shes talked about it almost weekly for years...), but she wont do it because she "would feel to guilty" about leaving someone so helpless. WTF?
I hate Thanksgiving... maybe someday it wont suck... but at the same time how can it ever be okay when my whole family is a big steaming pile of crap. And if my mom stays with whats his butt, I can say that I wouldn't come home for the holidays... seeing as it can't be home if he's around.
On another note, I found an earwig in my hamsters cage bedding (it was still in the bag...) so I called the company, and they sent me a whole case for free. So cool. This bedding costs like 14.99 per bag (it the good for the environment kind with oder control...) and now I have 6 bags... so great. I never have to buy it again... sweet. I guess thats one good thing thats happened this time of year...