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i usually don't bother with making new year resolutions, as chances are i'd never be able see them through. but this year i thought i'd pen down some thoughts of what i intend to do for 2017, and have a reference to compare to when year-end comes around.
2016 made me realize a lot about the importance of being more selective about everything. about who i hang out with. about who i bare my true feelings to. about what i put into my mouth. about what i open my wallet for. i hit this long stretch of self-doubt slump, as some relations at work crumbled which resulted in some of the worst behaviour i've ever seen. eventually i learnt that it was my mistake for always having worn my heart on my sleeve, for being openly honest with my views, and for being too trusting. it was a painful lesson, but i've moved on. i've finally learnt what it means, and takes, to separate myself when in work and out of it. though it may be easier to just give up and leave this job, but i've learnt to look at it from another angle; if i want to become a full-fledged bitch, then there is no better place to practise being one than this.
one thing i hope to achieve in 2017, is to simplify my life. not just by trying to stop myself from caving into mindless consumerism, but by being more conscious of the item's purpose, design and usability when making purchase decisions. just two days ago i sold off the white samantha vega handbag for a pittance, and it was a valuable lesson in itself. the bag was an impulse, last-min buy which i obviously did not put much thought into it's functionality and size. my first-use experience was a disaster. the shoulder strap goes onto the flap rather than the bag itself, which means i must close the flap properly or else the contents in the bag will spill out. but the two magnetic clasps on the front were so hard to close properly as the bag is too wide and my contents can't fill it up properly to prop the clasps up.after two uses, the bag was banished to cold storage forever. same goes to the other coach bag i have up on carousell. my first trip to US, my first outlet mall buy. in the end the bag has proved to be too big for my daily use, but functionally it still beats the white handbag so i feel less urgh about keeping it.
i guess, to make conscious decisions is to also be more aware of my own likes and user habits. to a certain extent its to know myself better, and only by doing that then i can better decisions on my purchases and not end up feeling regret at the end of the day. i hope i can remember all these, and constantly make conscious decisions for everything and anything that comes my way.
2016 made me realize a lot about the importance of being more selective about everything. about who i hang out with. about who i bare my true feelings to. about what i put into my mouth. about what i open my wallet for. i hit this long stretch of self-doubt slump, as some relations at work crumbled which resulted in some of the worst behaviour i've ever seen. eventually i learnt that it was my mistake for always having worn my heart on my sleeve, for being openly honest with my views, and for being too trusting. it was a painful lesson, but i've moved on. i've finally learnt what it means, and takes, to separate myself when in work and out of it. though it may be easier to just give up and leave this job, but i've learnt to look at it from another angle; if i want to become a full-fledged bitch, then there is no better place to practise being one than this.
one thing i hope to achieve in 2017, is to simplify my life. not just by trying to stop myself from caving into mindless consumerism, but by being more conscious of the item's purpose, design and usability when making purchase decisions. just two days ago i sold off the white samantha vega handbag for a pittance, and it was a valuable lesson in itself. the bag was an impulse, last-min buy which i obviously did not put much thought into it's functionality and size. my first-use experience was a disaster. the shoulder strap goes onto the flap rather than the bag itself, which means i must close the flap properly or else the contents in the bag will spill out. but the two magnetic clasps on the front were so hard to close properly as the bag is too wide and my contents can't fill it up properly to prop the clasps up.after two uses, the bag was banished to cold storage forever. same goes to the other coach bag i have up on carousell. my first trip to US, my first outlet mall buy. in the end the bag has proved to be too big for my daily use, but functionally it still beats the white handbag so i feel less urgh about keeping it.
i guess, to make conscious decisions is to also be more aware of my own likes and user habits. to a certain extent its to know myself better, and only by doing that then i can better decisions on my purchases and not end up feeling regret at the end of the day. i hope i can remember all these, and constantly make conscious decisions for everything and anything that comes my way.