Can't hear you over the static
I have a problem.
My problem is that I am obsessed with feeling pain.
I want to feel pain.
I cannot live a day without pain.
I cannot live a day without suffering.
I cannot live a day without torment.
I cannot live a day without frowning.
I can live a day without happiness.
I can live a day without smiling, laughing.
Now someone please tell me, is that scary or what?
I love pain and I love inflicting pain on myself on purpose.
Things like playing with fire and bleeding and ... you get the idea.
I don't feel scared anymore.
How? How how how how howwwwww?
I really want to stop this self-torment but I don't know how
Because I don't know how to love myself. And if I can't love myself, how can I love others?
:(
Really sad.