The windshield's broken, but I love the fresh air.

May 20, 2008 04:07

I gave up at trying to look strong ( Read more... )

blegh, fuck, family, be strong

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covermewithsins May 19 2008, 23:13:38 UTC
When it comes to problems in the household, 9 out of 10 times it's the kids fault. But it's wrong, you see. It was never the kids' fault. And I hate to say this but your mom's being...blah.

Or maybe it's because I dont know the story. *shrugs*

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avenue May 20 2008, 02:08:27 UTC
She is.

She just realized that I was crying like, half-way through what I wanted to say.

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chiaki05_kr May 19 2008, 23:44:37 UTC
I don't know you that much to judge or say anything about your family situation, but... somehow, reading such a sad entry on your lj makes me feel sad too éwè

Cry, whines... sometimes doing those kind of stuff is good. Or at least, it is for me, since I cry out really often xD cause it's the only thing makes me feel a little relieved >w<
So, don't be ashamed to be a human being, ne?
It's ok to show your weakness sometimes that reminds me of alice nine's Tsubasa........

I hope you feel better soon *and I'm feeling stupid for such a lame reply :D*

*grabs again*

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avenue May 20 2008, 02:11:34 UTC
I'm sorry. xD I hope I didn't ruin your mood or anything.

It is. This all, was honestly, pent-up. The only thing nice about what I did, maybe, was just being able to cry out. Not sure if it was all out, but.. it helped.

Thank you. There's no such thing as a stupid reply. ♥

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chiaki05_kr May 20 2008, 10:35:56 UTC
Well, for what it worths... <3
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h311ybean May 19 2008, 23:57:38 UTC
For whatever it's worth, I'm glad you tried to talk to them. Maybe it didn't go too well the first time, but keep trying. They're parents and SHOULD make the time to listen to you.

(The first time I tried to tell them that I hated my job at the bank, they wouldn't listen either.)

What did you try to say?

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avenue May 20 2008, 02:07:01 UTC
That mom makes it seem like it's a bad thing that I wanted Shizuka to be here because it's adding major strain on the budget or whatever.

And that I was lonely because you were leaving and missing things like my prom or graduation (bah, it's only a matter of time since people miss my goddamn funeral) and it was making it so hard to really feel happy for you..

But I am. :(

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h311ybean May 20 2008, 02:47:35 UTC
Thank you for trying to be happy for me.

I'm excited about grad school, but am sad and scared about being away from everyone. Life's going to go on without me, and I'm not going to be there for it. I'm going to miss a lot! I know there's email and stuff for keeping in touch - I want updates with pictures on what kind of prom dress you're thinking of getting, and who you're going to ask! - but it's not the same as actually being there.

Just an initial tip on the prom date thing - even though people might laugh at you (mom laughed at me when I did it), preparing a script in advance is a good idea for when you're asking the guy. That way, you'll have something decent to say whether he says yes or no! (He had better say yes, whoever he is, if he knows what's good for him...)

Oh, and I just realized we're going to graduate the same year! Batchmates! :-p

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avenue May 20 2008, 03:04:27 UTC
I know you're worked so hard on it, and you've waited too long for such an opportunity. So I feel a little bad for being so selfish.

Yeah, it's not the same.

Lol, yeah, I did recently try and think of how to ask him. I admitted to mom that I wanted to ask Emilio, (kaya me hinting that I like it better in the teacher's house for lessons, etc), but she even doubts I'll have a prom. :d

Hehe :p

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