long time no post
I don't know if any legit famous person ever said it, but I got this quote from Animal Crossing: "To need nothing is to know contentment." I want to make it my life motto, but in reality, there are too many things I am afraid of. Some are constant, and others are like waves, when I find myself alone in the living room on a quiet weekday evening, just thinking about all the things I want, I have to do right.
I'm afraid of failure. And yes I know that's one of the qualities of Eastern societies that contributed to its economic backwardness from maybe about the 17th century onwards during the Great Divergence (sorry, I just wrote a paper about it so it's randomly still in my head), but that's me, and it has always been me. I'm afraid to fail, and thus I set myself and my life up in ways that, as much as possible, leaves no room for failure. If I leave room due to laziness or neglect, I trust myself enough to right it. I rely far too much on my memory and common sense (relative; therefore referring to the sense I possess), that sometimes I just need to lie down.
To lie down and feel the weight of everything that I want and aspire to be, crushing my limbs, stinging my eyes, and convincing my brain that it's better if there was none of it. None of it at all.
To need nothing is to know contentment.
But is that necessarily more human?
I'm afraid of failure. And yes I know that's one of the qualities of Eastern societies that contributed to its economic backwardness from maybe about the 17th century onwards during the Great Divergence (sorry, I just wrote a paper about it so it's randomly still in my head), but that's me, and it has always been me. I'm afraid to fail, and thus I set myself and my life up in ways that, as much as possible, leaves no room for failure. If I leave room due to laziness or neglect, I trust myself enough to right it. I rely far too much on my memory and common sense (relative; therefore referring to the sense I possess), that sometimes I just need to lie down.
To lie down and feel the weight of everything that I want and aspire to be, crushing my limbs, stinging my eyes, and convincing my brain that it's better if there was none of it. None of it at all.
To need nothing is to know contentment.
But is that necessarily more human?