can't even count how many times i cried today.
Sa Tuesday, magkakaroon kami ng Junior-Senior bonding thing na parang naging kapatiran/class encounter, from 1-6pm. Nung sinabi samin un nina Ayna, grabe, daming umayaw. Kasi, first of all, di namin masyadong trip ang Juniors batch (sorry peculuiarities, but I think your batch doesn't really like us either). Di naman sa hate, pero mas okay kaming may distansya. Ung walang paki-alaman.
So, puro angal hanggang umiyak na sina Ayna and the rest of the officers na naghirap para i-approve ung activity na 'to. Since Ayna couldn't talk anymore, Maxine had to explain pa kung bakit talaga kailangan gawin 'to. That was, to address some issues that have been going on with the younger batches.
...Ganito na ba ang AA ngayon? How could there such be moral degredation in kids today? Especially sa lugar na akala mo napaka-safe, napaka-ayos, kung saan ka lumaki at natuto ng tamang asal. We all have our going-ons, but this...this talaga.
Medyo napanganga lang ako.
Pero hindi ko na ieexplain. Di ko naman rin alam ung buong storya eh.
I guess, silently, nag-agree na rin kaming gawin, kasi wala nang umiimik. Ung iba, umiiyak nalang. Pinakanta si Roxy as a form of prayer for the younger batches. She sung "I Want Peace".
Kung kilala mo si Roxy, sya ung since bata pa, ang galing na kumanta. Sya ung tipong mag b-Bachelor of Music tapos tatanda na mukhang donya na opera-star. Ganun. So malamang, habang kumakanta sya, kinikilabutan kaming lahat, intense sa pagkinig...quiet lang.
At one point, naiyak na rin sya. Erika came up to help her continue the song, tapos ung buong Komu kumanta na ng second voice. Cue waaaay more goosebumps, iyakan, etc.
After nung song, nagsalita naman si Ms. Marah, again, habang umiiyak. Na what just happened will be something that will mark her forever. Na if she died today (explosion of iyakan, haha), and her life flashed before her eyes, ito rin daw lalabas. Kasama sa memories nya, and yet again, it's from us.
I didn't know we mattered so much to her. Akala namin parang, nuisance lang kami, trabaho lang kami, pero...you could feel her sincerity.
Kumanta rin sina Jamie and Fami ng "For Good", kasi it's a song na Ms. Marah thinks best explains kung paano sya nachange ng mga estudyante nya, especially us. "Who knows if I changed for the better? But I've certainly changed for good." It pulls on your heart, and talagang maiiyak ka rin. Maaapektohan ka rin. You realize rin na...gusto mo talagang makatulong, makaapekto ng iba.
Sabi nila na the younger batches really look up to us daw. Ung Freshmen nga, kumanta ng Jesus In Your Midst nung isang morning talk (ayy grabe, alam mo ba kung gaano ako na-touch dun. JIYM kasi is parang, our song. For some reason, kami lang ung batch na may alam nun, and it ended up defining us and what kinds of people we are throughout our years. We sing it everyday, and have recently started sharing it with other batches to pass on. The fact na kinanta ng Freshmen, natouch talaga kami).
Ung maganda daw about our batch is the unity, the willingness to share ourselves, our talents, and to be ates ng younger batches.
At habang ako mismo, wala namang masyadong issue sa mga "kinababatang kapatid" ko, knowing what some of them are doing, knowing that it's going to ruin them so bad, and they're going to have so many regrets in their life kung tinuloy nila yan...naisip ko rin, na gusto kong makatulong. Gusto kong makamarka sa buhay ng iba. Gusto ko ring makitang successful sila, at na talagang iniba ng Assumption (hindi lang ang edukasyon, kundi ang mga taong nakilala nila dito) ang pagkatao nila.
You guys...have so much potential. So much to live for yet. Never throw any of that away. Sinasayang niyo lang lahat ng talento ninyo, at pati kami nasasaktan na makita yan.
Life is good to you. God is always good to you. You just have to be good to yourself.
Respetuhin niyo naman ang sarili ninyo. Respetuhin ninyo ang ibang tao.
Maniwala. Magmahal. Magpatawad.
Please. Kung sana...kahit wala na kami next year.
Please, bring the values back in our school. Let people love and see the beauty in others again.
I'm begging you.
So, puro angal hanggang umiyak na sina Ayna and the rest of the officers na naghirap para i-approve ung activity na 'to. Since Ayna couldn't talk anymore, Maxine had to explain pa kung bakit talaga kailangan gawin 'to. That was, to address some issues that have been going on with the younger batches.
...Ganito na ba ang AA ngayon? How could there such be moral degredation in kids today? Especially sa lugar na akala mo napaka-safe, napaka-ayos, kung saan ka lumaki at natuto ng tamang asal. We all have our going-ons, but this...this talaga.
Medyo napanganga lang ako.
Pero hindi ko na ieexplain. Di ko naman rin alam ung buong storya eh.
I guess, silently, nag-agree na rin kaming gawin, kasi wala nang umiimik. Ung iba, umiiyak nalang. Pinakanta si Roxy as a form of prayer for the younger batches. She sung "I Want Peace".
Kung kilala mo si Roxy, sya ung since bata pa, ang galing na kumanta. Sya ung tipong mag b-Bachelor of Music tapos tatanda na mukhang donya na opera-star. Ganun. So malamang, habang kumakanta sya, kinikilabutan kaming lahat, intense sa pagkinig...quiet lang.
At one point, naiyak na rin sya. Erika came up to help her continue the song, tapos ung buong Komu kumanta na ng second voice. Cue waaaay more goosebumps, iyakan, etc.
After nung song, nagsalita naman si Ms. Marah, again, habang umiiyak. Na what just happened will be something that will mark her forever. Na if she died today (explosion of iyakan, haha), and her life flashed before her eyes, ito rin daw lalabas. Kasama sa memories nya, and yet again, it's from us.
I didn't know we mattered so much to her. Akala namin parang, nuisance lang kami, trabaho lang kami, pero...you could feel her sincerity.
Kumanta rin sina Jamie and Fami ng "For Good", kasi it's a song na Ms. Marah thinks best explains kung paano sya nachange ng mga estudyante nya, especially us. "Who knows if I changed for the better? But I've certainly changed for good." It pulls on your heart, and talagang maiiyak ka rin. Maaapektohan ka rin. You realize rin na...gusto mo talagang makatulong, makaapekto ng iba.
Sabi nila na the younger batches really look up to us daw. Ung Freshmen nga, kumanta ng Jesus In Your Midst nung isang morning talk (ayy grabe, alam mo ba kung gaano ako na-touch dun. JIYM kasi is parang, our song. For some reason, kami lang ung batch na may alam nun, and it ended up defining us and what kinds of people we are throughout our years. We sing it everyday, and have recently started sharing it with other batches to pass on. The fact na kinanta ng Freshmen, natouch talaga kami).
Ung maganda daw about our batch is the unity, the willingness to share ourselves, our talents, and to be ates ng younger batches.
At habang ako mismo, wala namang masyadong issue sa mga "kinababatang kapatid" ko, knowing what some of them are doing, knowing that it's going to ruin them so bad, and they're going to have so many regrets in their life kung tinuloy nila yan...naisip ko rin, na gusto kong makatulong. Gusto kong makamarka sa buhay ng iba. Gusto ko ring makitang successful sila, at na talagang iniba ng Assumption (hindi lang ang edukasyon, kundi ang mga taong nakilala nila dito) ang pagkatao nila.
You guys...have so much potential. So much to live for yet. Never throw any of that away. Sinasayang niyo lang lahat ng talento ninyo, at pati kami nasasaktan na makita yan.
Life is good to you. God is always good to you. You just have to be good to yourself.
Respetuhin niyo naman ang sarili ninyo. Respetuhin ninyo ang ibang tao.
Maniwala. Magmahal. Magpatawad.
Please. Kung sana...kahit wala na kami next year.
Please, bring the values back in our school. Let people love and see the beauty in others again.
I'm begging you.