May 20, 2007 14:34
I had a dream last night, possibly enduced by lack of sleep, or to much "junk" food, or one or more of the other things i do thats not good for me. It was the most intense and vivid dream to date. I was at St. Josphe's school, i saw two of my friends that i spent alot of time hanging out with at the time, billy, and josh, anyway, we were still 8th grade ages, i had a kid the night before, but he was now around age 5 for some reason, and looked just like i did at that age, i was so proud, i went around the school yard (though its all paved and not really a yard) showing him off to everyone. Just looking at him made me want to smile, and i finally understood the meaning of unconditional love. what i took from it was that people can only love themselves uncondtionaly and their kids becuase their kids are pieces of them.
I spent over 9 1/2 hours playing guitar friday night, never once did it become old or mundane, i wrote a song with many parts, some lyrics but i don't really like them, but they did express alot of my views of existance, how "the constitution burns, to ash in front of you"-(boysetsfire)and why we feel the need to fight over things that could just as easily be reasoned out.
and now im thinking that the dream i had last night was an answer to why we exist.
and call me what you will, but im starting to enjoy D&D.