Only people who truly care for me will/.should read this...
I feel as though my world is crashing down on me. I know some of you are saying oh it's not a big deal but it is. It was like a year and 9 month (technically speaking) and it was wonderful. It is all coming to an end on Sunday though. He didn't want to do it over the phone because it's a "dick of a thing to do" I respect that a lot. I know things happen for a reason and I thank Manda for reminding me of that last night. I know things will be okay in the end because I have all of you wonderful friends that will be there with me until I am okay.
I'm not sorry he is doing it. It's what he feels. Believe me I thought about begging, about seducing him (not that I would), laying a guilt trip on him, telling him I would do anything to find that "missing something". But I realized that it would be very selfish of me to do all of that and it just wouldn't be right. He needs to do what he needs for himself. I am going to be really sad and I know it. But everything will turn out how it is supposed to, it will be good no matter what happens.
I am going to miss him though. I mean it is very rare that you find a guy who will open the door every single time there is one needed to be opened, who asks you what you want to eat when you are out to dinner and orders it for you ( it sounds kind of weird but it's really sweet), who treats you like you are the greatest thing ever created on the planted, isn't afraid to cry in front of you, and isn't afraid to admit when he is wrong. He was so great and treated me like a princess. I am going to miss him so much. I am not ready for it to end...
I know as long as we are friend though things will be okay. What I want is for us to be friends like me and Scotty are or me and Drew were. That would make me so happy. I think it will work out that way to. He's that type of person.
I have no regrets. I'm not gonna just up and say oh I don't love you anymore because I'm hurt, because I do still love him. I'm not going to say all the time I spent with him was a waste because it wasn't. He did so much for me, he helped me through everything. He is a great man.
What is ment to be will be in the end.....
I will pack up HIS things, not the things he gave me. So the blanket that I love ever so much because it's so soft, his hockey jersy, and his Michigan Tech sweatshirt *sigh*
Please don't call me sunday I am expecting to spend the whole day with him regardless of what happens, and monday I work, but Tuesday I will be home alone with no one there to help me through. If you called me that day to make sure I was okay I would be so grateful. I'll even try not to cry! heh.. I love you guys and I'm going to thank you for everything you do in advance Home 744-2865 Cell 215-4985
I'm not sorry he is doing it. It's what he feels. Believe me I thought about begging, about seducing him (not that I would), laying a guilt trip on him, telling him I would do anything to find that "missing something". But I realized that it would be very selfish of me to do all of that and it just wouldn't be right. He needs to do what he needs for himself. I am going to be really sad and I know it. But everything will turn out how it is supposed to, it will be good no matter what happens.
I am going to miss him though. I mean it is very rare that you find a guy who will open the door every single time there is one needed to be opened, who asks you what you want to eat when you are out to dinner and orders it for you ( it sounds kind of weird but it's really sweet), who treats you like you are the greatest thing ever created on the planted, isn't afraid to cry in front of you, and isn't afraid to admit when he is wrong. He was so great and treated me like a princess. I am going to miss him so much. I am not ready for it to end...
I know as long as we are friend though things will be okay. What I want is for us to be friends like me and Scotty are or me and Drew were. That would make me so happy. I think it will work out that way to. He's that type of person.
I have no regrets. I'm not gonna just up and say oh I don't love you anymore because I'm hurt, because I do still love him. I'm not going to say all the time I spent with him was a waste because it wasn't. He did so much for me, he helped me through everything. He is a great man.
What is ment to be will be in the end.....
I will pack up HIS things, not the things he gave me. So the blanket that I love ever so much because it's so soft, his hockey jersy, and his Michigan Tech sweatshirt *sigh*
Please don't call me sunday I am expecting to spend the whole day with him regardless of what happens, and monday I work, but Tuesday I will be home alone with no one there to help me through. If you called me that day to make sure I was okay I would be so grateful. I'll even try not to cry! heh.. I love you guys and I'm going to thank you for everything you do in advance Home 744-2865 Cell 215-4985