"Put those big size 13's on and kick it for the hummies!" Friday, August 04, 2006 MS Steal Off
Right now, it's fucking 7:15 in the morning, I don't know what the hell inspired me to write a blog so early, I just wanted to do it.
My eyes hurt, but I finally made myself go to sleep by thinking really deeply yesterday. I've been listening to alot of garageband lately. Lately that shit is been my life saver, I put that on, and then I go to sleep really awesome. I've been thinking about the problems I've been having and they don't seem to bother me anymore. I just love waking up without that stress block in the way. I love waking up in the morning for work and then going to work with a fucking smile on my face.
It's not like my job is very stressful it's just, wow, I've fucking came a long way, and now shit is finally happening on the way I wanted to be. I've been looking for schools, thats been okay. I have a fucking month for me to get into a school, I'm surly not waiting for no spring semister I want to make sure, that I'm in in September, and no way about it, I will find a school that has the right program. Also, lately, I've been looking at other majors besides "Video Game Design."
I've notice that I look to decorate a lot things, So maybe I was thinking about being an " Interior Decorator" I don't know, sorry to get like really black right now, but them mother fucka's make a lot of money, okay? My ass is beasting right now for money, I've been working my ass off, and now I have to keep working my ass off to reach to the top. I have to ignore any type of negative problem that might come my way. I mean surely, I can't always ignore a problem, but if I let it get to me, then I will surely fall again, and thats not where I want to be.
My life is basically on track, and I have the right people supporting me on what I want to do. I don't need to have a lot of friends. I know I will make plenty of friends once I go to college, and hopefully a long the line I will find me a nice roomate because I want to get the hell out of my grandmother's house in maybe 2 yrs, or a 1 and half from now. I'm going to be saving a lot of money and I'm not fucking playing, I want to get out of here.
I heard that my grandmother is selling the house, but I don't know what year, or the day, I just know that I have to start saving fast, or my ass is going to wound up somewhere. My goal right now is to open my bank account ( Yeah I didn't do that shit yet, but I got my state ID though), then start studying for my permit ( yeah, I didn't get that shit either, but I will) and then right from there, start saving for my car and apartment. I know that I have to take care of the finicial aid for school, but I've got 3 weeks of august and if I do this right, I could register, and get my shit together, and then I can start worrying about my car, but I have to start caculating the money because thats what I love to do.
Anyways, I kept you guys for a long time, I just wanted to do a blog, and I haven't written a serious one about MYSELF in a while because the last blogs I've been talking about how much I need my alone time, which I finally got, and I'm fucking happy. Some people just can't understand that we all need to grow no matter what. Either if it is with someone or without someone. It's just better that way, you can give yourself as much time as you like, or if your ready you can be someone and then grow with them as well. With me, I want to take things slow, and then when I get there, I will surely meet my standards and then the person and I can go forward in life and maybe guide me, but for a right now,
I'm a happy single mother fucker who is loving every second, and minute of it. I must inhale all this in before it's too late. People say " Too Late?" " For What?" Yeah, there will come a time when your ass is old as hell, and been had five thousand kids, and you say your age is 47 but you been through so many packs of cigerettes that your ass looks like your fucking 70, yeah thats what I'm talking about. When you settle down with the person you grown to love, and then you get married and have kids. Thats what I'm talking about, and most people don't understand that, once you have your first child, you should be a strong devoted parent because that kid in your life is going to need your fucking help for everything. It's going to need your guidance, love, and your support. Even though you use to come first, now your child is going to become first, and then yourself because if you put yourself infront of your child, then your selfish, thats my point of view. As longs you are raising a child by yourself, that shows your very strong and that maybe you don't need another half to help you out, but now a days you need all the help you can get, and if someone is willing to help you, then they must be a really good friend, or just really fucking care about you, or maybe even love you. Thats awesome, I honestly, don't know was I decided to write, I was just inspired by the morning, it just seemed like a really good time to write all this. I hope someone reads this long ass blog, lol. Because I'm probably going to write more later, but now my ass needs to get ready for work.
I love you guys, Jackie I love you a lot, we been hanging out almost everyday, and supporting each other a lot. I know you have a lot going for you and wherever you go, I want to be there for you, either if it's on the phone or in person, my advice could travel anywhere, whether it's a note or through toilet paper, it will get to you some how. Keep going and striving, I love man, do your best 100% and you will fucking get there.
Anthony, I can't forget you, you have helped me through a lot, even though you probably haven't seen it, but you have. Your advice has made me feel a lot better, and your a really awesome person. I love how forward you can be about your feelings, and I just want you to know that I will be there for you as well, because your just really awesome and I wanted you to know that. I wish you the best as well. lol "I hasa crayon~" lmao.
Anyways, now to close this long as blog, I love you all, and I hate you all at the same time, whatever that means, lol. I'm going to go get dressed and mind my own buisness, and what " AND LEAVE YOURS ALONE!" lmao, already that was whack, anyways, later guys!
Crystal Crazy Chemistry6 always forever "The famous Teal"
My eyes hurt, but I finally made myself go to sleep by thinking really deeply yesterday. I've been listening to alot of garageband lately. Lately that shit is been my life saver, I put that on, and then I go to sleep really awesome. I've been thinking about the problems I've been having and they don't seem to bother me anymore. I just love waking up without that stress block in the way. I love waking up in the morning for work and then going to work with a fucking smile on my face.
It's not like my job is very stressful it's just, wow, I've fucking came a long way, and now shit is finally happening on the way I wanted to be. I've been looking for schools, thats been okay. I have a fucking month for me to get into a school, I'm surly not waiting for no spring semister I want to make sure, that I'm in in September, and no way about it, I will find a school that has the right program. Also, lately, I've been looking at other majors besides "Video Game Design."
I've notice that I look to decorate a lot things, So maybe I was thinking about being an " Interior Decorator" I don't know, sorry to get like really black right now, but them mother fucka's make a lot of money, okay? My ass is beasting right now for money, I've been working my ass off, and now I have to keep working my ass off to reach to the top. I have to ignore any type of negative problem that might come my way. I mean surely, I can't always ignore a problem, but if I let it get to me, then I will surely fall again, and thats not where I want to be.
My life is basically on track, and I have the right people supporting me on what I want to do. I don't need to have a lot of friends. I know I will make plenty of friends once I go to college, and hopefully a long the line I will find me a nice roomate because I want to get the hell out of my grandmother's house in maybe 2 yrs, or a 1 and half from now. I'm going to be saving a lot of money and I'm not fucking playing, I want to get out of here.
I heard that my grandmother is selling the house, but I don't know what year, or the day, I just know that I have to start saving fast, or my ass is going to wound up somewhere. My goal right now is to open my bank account ( Yeah I didn't do that shit yet, but I got my state ID though), then start studying for my permit ( yeah, I didn't get that shit either, but I will) and then right from there, start saving for my car and apartment. I know that I have to take care of the finicial aid for school, but I've got 3 weeks of august and if I do this right, I could register, and get my shit together, and then I can start worrying about my car, but I have to start caculating the money because thats what I love to do.
Anyways, I kept you guys for a long time, I just wanted to do a blog, and I haven't written a serious one about MYSELF in a while because the last blogs I've been talking about how much I need my alone time, which I finally got, and I'm fucking happy. Some people just can't understand that we all need to grow no matter what. Either if it is with someone or without someone. It's just better that way, you can give yourself as much time as you like, or if your ready you can be someone and then grow with them as well. With me, I want to take things slow, and then when I get there, I will surely meet my standards and then the person and I can go forward in life and maybe guide me, but for a right now,
I'm a happy single mother fucker who is loving every second, and minute of it. I must inhale all this in before it's too late. People say " Too Late?" " For What?" Yeah, there will come a time when your ass is old as hell, and been had five thousand kids, and you say your age is 47 but you been through so many packs of cigerettes that your ass looks like your fucking 70, yeah thats what I'm talking about. When you settle down with the person you grown to love, and then you get married and have kids. Thats what I'm talking about, and most people don't understand that, once you have your first child, you should be a strong devoted parent because that kid in your life is going to need your fucking help for everything. It's going to need your guidance, love, and your support. Even though you use to come first, now your child is going to become first, and then yourself because if you put yourself infront of your child, then your selfish, thats my point of view. As longs you are raising a child by yourself, that shows your very strong and that maybe you don't need another half to help you out, but now a days you need all the help you can get, and if someone is willing to help you, then they must be a really good friend, or just really fucking care about you, or maybe even love you. Thats awesome, I honestly, don't know was I decided to write, I was just inspired by the morning, it just seemed like a really good time to write all this. I hope someone reads this long ass blog, lol. Because I'm probably going to write more later, but now my ass needs to get ready for work.
I love you guys, Jackie I love you a lot, we been hanging out almost everyday, and supporting each other a lot. I know you have a lot going for you and wherever you go, I want to be there for you, either if it's on the phone or in person, my advice could travel anywhere, whether it's a note or through toilet paper, it will get to you some how. Keep going and striving, I love man, do your best 100% and you will fucking get there.
Anthony, I can't forget you, you have helped me through a lot, even though you probably haven't seen it, but you have. Your advice has made me feel a lot better, and your a really awesome person. I love how forward you can be about your feelings, and I just want you to know that I will be there for you as well, because your just really awesome and I wanted you to know that. I wish you the best as well. lol "I hasa crayon~" lmao.
Anyways, now to close this long as blog, I love you all, and I hate you all at the same time, whatever that means, lol. I'm going to go get dressed and mind my own buisness, and what " AND LEAVE YOURS ALONE!" lmao, already that was whack, anyways, later guys!
Crystal Crazy Chemistry6 always forever "The famous Teal"