Where am I?
Hello LJ and friends.
Where am I? Currently I reside in Warren. Only about an hour away from Akron. Away from many things I know. I moved out here only 2 weeks ago after a friend of mine lost her father. The house now hers, but the area is not anyones idea of home. Houses in this area sell as low as 17k. 17k you say?! Yes. The car manufacturing plant nearby has shut down, bringing down alot of the local plants around it to their knees cause they supplied much of that the car manufacturer needed. No jobs? Land and house values going way down.
Anyhow, my girlfriend of 2 1/2 years has moved out of Ohio. She offered me to go with her, but I turned it down. I do care for her, as she still cares for me. But I can't do a long distance relationship. I need that closeness..
Why she moved? Cause of Ohio. Jobs are slowly vanishing in Ohio and taxes continue to rise. She wanted a new start and a better chance at getting work. I wish her well and hope she is successful. Even though we keep in touch via e-mail, I miss her alot. I don't know how much longer I will still feel the same for her as I have before. "I can feel the distance getting closer" - Tori Amos - China
Why did I stay? Cause her friend since childhood, who has become my friend, needs someone to help her in this time of sadness. She has alot going on in her life and I can't help but want to help her get through it. Do I have an alterior motive in this? Maybe there is a hint in my heart. But it is also accompanied with a drive to help her. There's no way I could turn my back on someone in such need. I keep telling myself once her life is straitened out, that I will leave. Michele tells me things like "I wouldnt make it without your support" or "I couldnt stay here by myself, I'd be in a motel somewhere". Thats cause the neighborhood around here is a little.. bad. Every house in the area, has a dog. Usually several, BIG dogs.
I ask myself if I'm here for the wrong reasons. I wonder what I may have givin up by not going with Lisa. "Be true to yourself" , "Do what makes you happy in your heart". Words from Michele. My heart wants to be here. But my mind constantly asks questions. I have douhts.
My soul tells me, I know not where I am.
Where am I? Currently I reside in Warren. Only about an hour away from Akron. Away from many things I know. I moved out here only 2 weeks ago after a friend of mine lost her father. The house now hers, but the area is not anyones idea of home. Houses in this area sell as low as 17k. 17k you say?! Yes. The car manufacturing plant nearby has shut down, bringing down alot of the local plants around it to their knees cause they supplied much of that the car manufacturer needed. No jobs? Land and house values going way down.
Anyhow, my girlfriend of 2 1/2 years has moved out of Ohio. She offered me to go with her, but I turned it down. I do care for her, as she still cares for me. But I can't do a long distance relationship. I need that closeness..
Why she moved? Cause of Ohio. Jobs are slowly vanishing in Ohio and taxes continue to rise. She wanted a new start and a better chance at getting work. I wish her well and hope she is successful. Even though we keep in touch via e-mail, I miss her alot. I don't know how much longer I will still feel the same for her as I have before. "I can feel the distance getting closer" - Tori Amos - China
Why did I stay? Cause her friend since childhood, who has become my friend, needs someone to help her in this time of sadness. She has alot going on in her life and I can't help but want to help her get through it. Do I have an alterior motive in this? Maybe there is a hint in my heart. But it is also accompanied with a drive to help her. There's no way I could turn my back on someone in such need. I keep telling myself once her life is straitened out, that I will leave. Michele tells me things like "I wouldnt make it without your support" or "I couldnt stay here by myself, I'd be in a motel somewhere". Thats cause the neighborhood around here is a little.. bad. Every house in the area, has a dog. Usually several, BIG dogs.
I ask myself if I'm here for the wrong reasons. I wonder what I may have givin up by not going with Lisa. "Be true to yourself" , "Do what makes you happy in your heart". Words from Michele. My heart wants to be here. But my mind constantly asks questions. I have douhts.
My soul tells me, I know not where I am.