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Just got in from Lafayette. Visiting Jess (HI!) It was fun. Me and David and Dwight are sitting around looking at our old year book and laughing. I realized today that i'm not as strong willed as i thought i was. I'm such an ultra sensitive person and i try and tell myself that i'm not but i always am wrong. I wish that i was just numb to all types of feelings i think it's amazing that people can just shut down their emotions like they never existed. I wish i had that ability. Life would be easier to be numb. It's like i want to be numb so that i don't get hurt but on the other hand i don't cause i don't want to miss out on good feelings. I don't know i'm just aggrivated with myself for caring when i would rather not. I guess it's good that i live so far away. I guess running away is the thing i'm good at when ever i feel this way i like to run where no one can find me hence the reason i have no cell phone i like to sometimes pretend that i don't exist. It helps me but in the process i forget that i have freinds and they hurt because i leave. And when i come back it's weird. I want to run away but i'll lose my friends. I don't know i'm just fucked i guess. have a nice day everyone.