This is my second entry today
WOOO It's official, Tina and I are going to New York for the last weekend of winter break. Yess. I r excited! And tomorrow we have to perform our solo-ensemble piece for our class. Hopefully time will run out before our turn because there are still a couple passages that I have to fake through. I know it isn't a big deal, but I'd really just rather not play for a guest conductor who is going to tell me exactly what I already know is wrong. haha.
Hockey was so much fun.
My chest doesn't feel good. It hurts to breathe. Maybe I should go to sleep...my eyes are also swelling up and itching because I must have come in contact with something I'm really allergic to. Wow, not the best physical condition I've ever been in. But also not the worst so its okay.
I've been thinking about college lately..a lot. My thinking on this has a lot of layers, but I'll just brief up the important-er ones. I've come to the conclusion that I can't go out of state. I have this stupid complex that if I don't feel like I belong wherever I am, everything in my world loses it's color and meaning, leaving me very depressed. I've never really had a true concept of home. Which bothers me, but I've gotten along fine. Probably because I left Troy too soon to tell, and Birmingham and I just don't connect. Not that I hate everything and everyone here, it just isn't my fancy. It's not a place where I would want to raise my own kids I guess. Anyway..I'm one of those people who needs to have something there. I want to go to a college where I know that if I'm feeling really alone or anything, there is still someone there who I can call..but at the same time, if I want to never see Seaholm kids ever again, it would be possible. Hopefully that last run-on made sense. In state- I'm into MSU, going to have to wait on U of M for when they review my 1st semester grades, and I'm applying to Central tonight or tomorrow.
I am so freaking tired.
Going to Madison and seeing iv4k every day wouldn't be the same without you.
Bonne soir &hearts
Hockey was so much fun.
My chest doesn't feel good. It hurts to breathe. Maybe I should go to sleep...my eyes are also swelling up and itching because I must have come in contact with something I'm really allergic to. Wow, not the best physical condition I've ever been in. But also not the worst so its okay.
I've been thinking about college lately..a lot. My thinking on this has a lot of layers, but I'll just brief up the important-er ones. I've come to the conclusion that I can't go out of state. I have this stupid complex that if I don't feel like I belong wherever I am, everything in my world loses it's color and meaning, leaving me very depressed. I've never really had a true concept of home. Which bothers me, but I've gotten along fine. Probably because I left Troy too soon to tell, and Birmingham and I just don't connect. Not that I hate everything and everyone here, it just isn't my fancy. It's not a place where I would want to raise my own kids I guess. Anyway..I'm one of those people who needs to have something there. I want to go to a college where I know that if I'm feeling really alone or anything, there is still someone there who I can call..but at the same time, if I want to never see Seaholm kids ever again, it would be possible. Hopefully that last run-on made sense. In state- I'm into MSU, going to have to wait on U of M for when they review my 1st semester grades, and I'm applying to Central tonight or tomorrow.
I am so freaking tired.
Going to Madison and seeing iv4k every day wouldn't be the same without you.
Bonne soir &hearts