In a weird place
The fellow I worked for the last couple of years passed away last Friday. His name was Lou Georges, and he was a really good person who had endured more hardship in his life than a person should have to go through. The only good of it was that he went downhill really fast, and it was only about a month from him being diagnosed with cancer until he died. It still hits me as a bit of a shock that i won't see him again.
This also means that I'm out of work. This is another unpleasant shock, as I had felt that we had just hit a really good place financially. While I'm not the primary earner in the family, and we can survive without my income, it eliminates pretty much all of our "extra" money that would have allowed us to keep working on the house/take vacations/etc. I'm pretty much figuring out what to do at this point. I could go out and take another night position somewhere (though likely not as good a one as I just had)... but I think I'm going to try to get unemployment and spend a bit of time taking stock of "what do I want to be doing anyway?" I don't mind working night health care, but the perennial lack of sleep impacts my days more than I want it to.
And I feel like I have way too much that I'm trying to do. I'm trying to decide what aspects of my life I really enjoy and which are lower down - which really benefit myself and my family and which are big time wasters. It's rather disheartening to realize I can't do everything and that when I try I don't do much of anything very well. *sigh*
On the good side I'm working in my once a week homeschooling co-opt as the main teacher for a spanish immersion kindergarten. I'm really enjoying this (though it is also a bit of a time sink) and it's making me realize that I really do enjoy homeschooling a lot - it's those instances when I don't have the time to homeschool and the kids are just needing to be occupied and kept out of the way that I don't enjoy (and I don't feel good about myself, and tend to get irritated at the kids). Anyway, while I get paid for my work at the homeschooling co-op, it really just gives me enough to "hopefully" pay off their tuition to the group every term. Elisabeth also started classes this fall, which really hiked up the bill (she's in a 2hr. montessori preschool and a little kid music class).
Anyway, rather than stay home and take care of the many things I probably should be taking care of right now... I'm off to Mingo Creek Park for a homeschooling class on fire building with flint. It's a beautiful day and it's free and it's only once a month, and I know how much Werner will get a kick out of it. We missed the one last month about camouflage and moving silently in the woods, and I'm not sure he's going to forgive me.
This also means that I'm out of work. This is another unpleasant shock, as I had felt that we had just hit a really good place financially. While I'm not the primary earner in the family, and we can survive without my income, it eliminates pretty much all of our "extra" money that would have allowed us to keep working on the house/take vacations/etc. I'm pretty much figuring out what to do at this point. I could go out and take another night position somewhere (though likely not as good a one as I just had)... but I think I'm going to try to get unemployment and spend a bit of time taking stock of "what do I want to be doing anyway?" I don't mind working night health care, but the perennial lack of sleep impacts my days more than I want it to.
And I feel like I have way too much that I'm trying to do. I'm trying to decide what aspects of my life I really enjoy and which are lower down - which really benefit myself and my family and which are big time wasters. It's rather disheartening to realize I can't do everything and that when I try I don't do much of anything very well. *sigh*
On the good side I'm working in my once a week homeschooling co-opt as the main teacher for a spanish immersion kindergarten. I'm really enjoying this (though it is also a bit of a time sink) and it's making me realize that I really do enjoy homeschooling a lot - it's those instances when I don't have the time to homeschool and the kids are just needing to be occupied and kept out of the way that I don't enjoy (and I don't feel good about myself, and tend to get irritated at the kids). Anyway, while I get paid for my work at the homeschooling co-op, it really just gives me enough to "hopefully" pay off their tuition to the group every term. Elisabeth also started classes this fall, which really hiked up the bill (she's in a 2hr. montessori preschool and a little kid music class).
Anyway, rather than stay home and take care of the many things I probably should be taking care of right now... I'm off to Mingo Creek Park for a homeschooling class on fire building with flint. It's a beautiful day and it's free and it's only once a month, and I know how much Werner will get a kick out of it. We missed the one last month about camouflage and moving silently in the woods, and I'm not sure he's going to forgive me.