Further events in Friendship???
Well, he was on for a while (jo twice what stamina que no?) so i spoke w him for a while. and he says he's been busy i believe him (wanna know why see previous entry). so thats alls thats went on this afternoon other then finishishing off my assignment for edu268 and sending it in...which i dunno if she got it bc my hotmails been fucking up.
and i decided one final thing today i will write him an email sometime soon bc hes too tough to find online. he does have an aol addy i know bc i found his lil profile page w a very cute pic of him. makes me wonder why he didnt use that one on the gay.com profile he had of himself. eh not my business that. and yes he's still w bf tho i offered my...services while he was jo then i remembered hes w bf so cant. i hate living by an old code of honor amongst people that dont even know what honor means. before he left i warned him again of the type of man that he's with he knows as do i, but i cant help it when my warnings falls on deaf ears (the other reason i wasnt very out spoken after 9-11 on politics). he will find out one day if its a mistake or no. either way i need to stay out bc i warned him thrice and thrice did he not listen, and that is the max i give out warnings. plus i hate being this repeditive. after that i just hate it when people dont listen to my council on love sure my love life is a train wreck bc i never followed my advice saying "its me life. it could b different." yeah riiight. now i seem to have a talent for getting into a man's life at the wrong time esp if i like em a lil more than is friendly. lady luck kept me alive when i started driving now she exacts her price. how poetically tragic.
i really should start to write poetry again i am living life once more which means come up w new material. which means my heart is at a constant state of being bashed to pieces. still if u dont live u might as well already be dead. i think i would prefer to be dead right at this moment the loneliness is terribly oppressive today.
and i decided one final thing today i will write him an email sometime soon bc hes too tough to find online. he does have an aol addy i know bc i found his lil profile page w a very cute pic of him. makes me wonder why he didnt use that one on the gay.com profile he had of himself. eh not my business that. and yes he's still w bf tho i offered my...services while he was jo then i remembered hes w bf so cant. i hate living by an old code of honor amongst people that dont even know what honor means. before he left i warned him again of the type of man that he's with he knows as do i, but i cant help it when my warnings falls on deaf ears (the other reason i wasnt very out spoken after 9-11 on politics). he will find out one day if its a mistake or no. either way i need to stay out bc i warned him thrice and thrice did he not listen, and that is the max i give out warnings. plus i hate being this repeditive. after that i just hate it when people dont listen to my council on love sure my love life is a train wreck bc i never followed my advice saying "its me life. it could b different." yeah riiight. now i seem to have a talent for getting into a man's life at the wrong time esp if i like em a lil more than is friendly. lady luck kept me alive when i started driving now she exacts her price. how poetically tragic.
i really should start to write poetry again i am living life once more which means come up w new material. which means my heart is at a constant state of being bashed to pieces. still if u dont live u might as well already be dead. i think i would prefer to be dead right at this moment the loneliness is terribly oppressive today.