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I'm not sad that HS is over. Not yet, anyway. Perhaps I
will be next year. As for now, I'm not. I'm more "sad" that I
will have to leave all of my close friends and, basically, begin a new
life next year. New friends, new living situation, new pressures,
new worries, new bed time......new everything. For the moment,
I'm not sure how I feel about that. I am excited, but that's about all I know for sure.
Everyday I meet a new person who may be my classmate next year. This whole college thing is just becoming more and more real. In a lot of ways, it still does not feel as though it is, but I'm coming to acknowledge it as something that I must take seriously. I finally signed up for orientation. This is a big step. I bought my first plane tickets. This is an even bigger step.
I never know what I've got till it's gone. I never know how exactly I feel about something until I experience it. I don't get nervous, sad, or other emotions that people sometimes feel in advance. I'm all about the moment. Sometimes that sucks, 'cause when the moment comes, I'm just not ready. I hope I'm ready.
I have yet to buy my tickets for my return over Thanksgiving break. I'll do that soon. Heck, I'll do Christmas with it. I'm gonna come home pretty often this year, I figure. I get home sick very quickly. *sigh*
One thing I'm looking forward to is caring again. I just don't care about school anymore, and I really want that back. I want to care about what I'm being taught. I want to work hard for it. I want to feel the gratification and satisfaction that comes with accomplishing something great, even if I'm the only who thinks it's great. I don't know where I lost that part of myself, but I believe that starting off fresh next year will trigger it's return.
Everyday I meet a new person who may be my classmate next year. This whole college thing is just becoming more and more real. In a lot of ways, it still does not feel as though it is, but I'm coming to acknowledge it as something that I must take seriously. I finally signed up for orientation. This is a big step. I bought my first plane tickets. This is an even bigger step.
I never know what I've got till it's gone. I never know how exactly I feel about something until I experience it. I don't get nervous, sad, or other emotions that people sometimes feel in advance. I'm all about the moment. Sometimes that sucks, 'cause when the moment comes, I'm just not ready. I hope I'm ready.
I have yet to buy my tickets for my return over Thanksgiving break. I'll do that soon. Heck, I'll do Christmas with it. I'm gonna come home pretty often this year, I figure. I get home sick very quickly. *sigh*
One thing I'm looking forward to is caring again. I just don't care about school anymore, and I really want that back. I want to care about what I'm being taught. I want to work hard for it. I want to feel the gratification and satisfaction that comes with accomplishing something great, even if I'm the only who thinks it's great. I don't know where I lost that part of myself, but I believe that starting off fresh next year will trigger it's return.