Doesn't seem worth it.... and waiting sucks.....
So looking at the date, it was my sister's half birthday. In turn, mine is only 10 days away. Ill be quarter of a century old.....At first I wanted a huge sweet 16 type thing, dress as you want. Id be formal... but now I see it almost no point as, well, birthdays just seem like another day to me.... thats what I feel now. Two years ago it was nice having a huge one with friends over, but most of those i dont talk to anymore. So the crowwd I would want would not be as big as I think it would be. Besides don't know many people would actually come....
As an update, I have an interest. Not girlfriend as I havent gone on a date yet... depressing as she hasn't called me back as we have other things to discuss. Why she doesn't call back I don't know. Im trying hard not to let my paranoia take over but its hard on me repressing myself from my own normal actions. If I act apon them, I dont want to look like an obssesed stalker or something. Im just thinking and hoping for the best. Doing so at least got me to at least to asking her out and her saying yes. So, its good, just have to think more so.
As an update, I have an interest. Not girlfriend as I havent gone on a date yet... depressing as she hasn't called me back as we have other things to discuss. Why she doesn't call back I don't know. Im trying hard not to let my paranoia take over but its hard on me repressing myself from my own normal actions. If I act apon them, I dont want to look like an obssesed stalker or something. Im just thinking and hoping for the best. Doing so at least got me to at least to asking her out and her saying yes. So, its good, just have to think more so.