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[avangeline46]

so i started my weird cutting shit all over again

but this time its worse

this time im not blacking out from an anxiety attack

this time im consciously cutting

and this time its not with dull scissors

this time its with razor blades taking from my new razor

and this time theres nobody here to help me

except meghan

i love meghan to death only im not sure she can help

its getting progressively worse

also when u cut with razors, it doesnt stop bleeding for some time

i asked my host mom for band-aids and she said how many

i said 3

she gave them to me and said

only 3?

why is she not concerned

why is her non concern getting to me

is this wrong?

am i getting worse?

or am i getting better because i realize whats happening

should I be concerned?

nothing is making sense right now

is this wrong?

am i wrong?........