"We were born to fuck each other one way or another...
But I'll only lie....
down by the waterside at night."
My new favorite voice is Sam Beam/Iron and wine. Oh yeah. Obsessive amounts of him flowing thru my life right now. I sing his songs on the streets with the birds. Ive been inspired by Kate Bush's new album actually. The refrain in the last song on the second disk is the most amazing thing. It is blackbird songs mixed with Kate laughing the most intense happy laughter ever and it makes me laugh too. It makes me feel like flying. I got up really high today...high,high up on the roof ...the top of the city...I climbed to the top of one of the highest hills in San Francisco which is a 10 minute walk from my house!! I went with my lovely roomate Gene Vi eve and she took lots of pictures of me spinnijng poi and stretching, doing yoga poses, mudras and Kali Ma tounge shaking. It felt great. I am so in love with this city. Then I took her to my favorite drag queen lingerie shop and she bought her very first corset! I am so lucky to have met these women. I absolutely love living with them. We get along wonderfully.
"What a lovely afternoon..."
Last night I finally said fuck it...ego be damned, and went to Death Guild. I really wanted to dance. I like Joe Radio better anyway. I had an excellent time. I found THE most funky elvis meets star trek dress at Goodwill (yes I miss the DI terribly!) and wore it for extra fun. The music was quite good, I drank a few jager bombs and spun in circles like a sufi, with a shiny dress fetish. I also wore my magick dancing shoes (from the DI). Later I met an interesting man named Taylor who I ended up going home with. No, not like that. Not yet! He gave me a ride home. I like him. He's my age,very tall, black with long braids, a Leo,definately,from Michigan, raised by his grandmother, and he held my hand for a minute..Sweet.** Blushes** He lives in Sacramento, about 90 minutes from here. I will see him again on Thursday. I am really happy when I make new friends. Oh, I did run into the previously mentioned DJ...the one who kicked me out on Halloween. He avoided looking at me when I was outside smoking, but later I passed him at the bar and he smiled at me and said hi. I smiled back,said hello. I lost the nerve to ask him what the fuck... oh well. He probably forgot by now anyway. I was quite content being distracted by good music and attractive strangers.
"Thank God you see me the way you do...strange as you are to me..."
See...I cant stop it. Sam Beam has posessed some part of me. Everything relates to a line in one of his songs.
In other news, I have begun a new journal, a log book if you will, of all my experiences and observations of working as a Tantrika/ Yogini/Pro Dom. I really am liking it. There is something really gratifying about so many aspects of this work. Someday I will write a big book. Im still in research phase right now!
My sudden trip back to Utah was not at all what I expected it to be, but served its purpose. I got the answers I needed. Loud and clear. Well, as loud and clear as silence can be, I suppose. I wasnt feeling very social. I was fucking freezing the entire time!!! I do not miss that shit! I had alot to process and release. Let go let go let go. I couldnt resist visiting the dance floor. That always helps. It was good to see the few of you I did get to see. I will be back in a month or so, for a week-ish, and will be much more social, I promise. You know, call good friends and stuff. Connect. Dance. Play. Try to maintain some body heat!!
Who's seen Jezebel? She was born to be a woman I would know
and hold like the breeze
half as tight as both eyes closed
Who's seen Jezebel?she went walking where the cedars line the road
Blouse on the ground
where the dogs were hungry, roaming
saying Wait, we swear
we'll love you more and wholly
Jezebel
It's we that you are for
only
Who's seen Jezebel? She was gone before I ever got to say
Lay here my love
Youre the only shape I'll pray to, Jezebel
Who's seen Jezebel? Will the mountain last as long as I can wait?
Wait for the dawn
How it aches to greet the day
Who's seen Jezebel? She was certainly the spark for all I've done
the window was wide
she could see the dogs come running
saying wait...
Goodnight.
down by the waterside at night."
My new favorite voice is Sam Beam/Iron and wine. Oh yeah. Obsessive amounts of him flowing thru my life right now. I sing his songs on the streets with the birds. Ive been inspired by Kate Bush's new album actually. The refrain in the last song on the second disk is the most amazing thing. It is blackbird songs mixed with Kate laughing the most intense happy laughter ever and it makes me laugh too. It makes me feel like flying. I got up really high today...high,high up on the roof ...the top of the city...I climbed to the top of one of the highest hills in San Francisco which is a 10 minute walk from my house!! I went with my lovely roomate Gene Vi eve and she took lots of pictures of me spinnijng poi and stretching, doing yoga poses, mudras and Kali Ma tounge shaking. It felt great. I am so in love with this city. Then I took her to my favorite drag queen lingerie shop and she bought her very first corset! I am so lucky to have met these women. I absolutely love living with them. We get along wonderfully.
"What a lovely afternoon..."
Last night I finally said fuck it...ego be damned, and went to Death Guild. I really wanted to dance. I like Joe Radio better anyway. I had an excellent time. I found THE most funky elvis meets star trek dress at Goodwill (yes I miss the DI terribly!) and wore it for extra fun. The music was quite good, I drank a few jager bombs and spun in circles like a sufi, with a shiny dress fetish. I also wore my magick dancing shoes (from the DI). Later I met an interesting man named Taylor who I ended up going home with. No, not like that. Not yet! He gave me a ride home. I like him. He's my age,very tall, black with long braids, a Leo,definately,from Michigan, raised by his grandmother, and he held my hand for a minute..Sweet.** Blushes** He lives in Sacramento, about 90 minutes from here. I will see him again on Thursday. I am really happy when I make new friends. Oh, I did run into the previously mentioned DJ...the one who kicked me out on Halloween. He avoided looking at me when I was outside smoking, but later I passed him at the bar and he smiled at me and said hi. I smiled back,said hello. I lost the nerve to ask him what the fuck... oh well. He probably forgot by now anyway. I was quite content being distracted by good music and attractive strangers.
"Thank God you see me the way you do...strange as you are to me..."
See...I cant stop it. Sam Beam has posessed some part of me. Everything relates to a line in one of his songs.
In other news, I have begun a new journal, a log book if you will, of all my experiences and observations of working as a Tantrika/ Yogini/Pro Dom. I really am liking it. There is something really gratifying about so many aspects of this work. Someday I will write a big book. Im still in research phase right now!
My sudden trip back to Utah was not at all what I expected it to be, but served its purpose. I got the answers I needed. Loud and clear. Well, as loud and clear as silence can be, I suppose. I wasnt feeling very social. I was fucking freezing the entire time!!! I do not miss that shit! I had alot to process and release. Let go let go let go. I couldnt resist visiting the dance floor. That always helps. It was good to see the few of you I did get to see. I will be back in a month or so, for a week-ish, and will be much more social, I promise. You know, call good friends and stuff. Connect. Dance. Play. Try to maintain some body heat!!
Who's seen Jezebel? She was born to be a woman I would know
and hold like the breeze
half as tight as both eyes closed
Who's seen Jezebel?she went walking where the cedars line the road
Blouse on the ground
where the dogs were hungry, roaming
saying Wait, we swear
we'll love you more and wholly
Jezebel
It's we that you are for
only
Who's seen Jezebel? She was gone before I ever got to say
Lay here my love
Youre the only shape I'll pray to, Jezebel
Who's seen Jezebel? Will the mountain last as long as I can wait?
Wait for the dawn
How it aches to greet the day
Who's seen Jezebel? She was certainly the spark for all I've done
the window was wide
she could see the dogs come running
saying wait...
Goodnight.