AAHHHH...
Going to Crystal hot spring yesterday was an excellent choice. I think we shall revisit the ritual of last year and try to go every sunday. Lithium dip rules. Im drinking the water. I would like to buy that place and make it into a healing mecca. We decided that Indian spirits live in the rising mist. We will make them an alter when we take over!
Some fire happened over the weekend. The show friday at Ken Sanders pissed me off because everyone was over an hour late showing up. I got sick of waiting and left. I was in a pretty bad mood right off because I walked into an uncomfortable situation immediantly...one of those situations where smiling and acting civil to someone loathesome is simply out of the question. It made me feel so much, so fast I had to leave. Too much water to light a fire there. I still miss him terribly...and the sight of her still makes my insides want to turn out.
Saturday was the 25 year anniversary party for KRCL. We spun outside the entrance down at the Library. I half expected to run into trouble again, but no. I had fun dancing with Nancy and I saw Tamra and Jason there too. Zafod and Lola were there and are getting married on July 9th up at their ranch. Three days of partyin' down. I saw a bunch of people I know, yet I felt weirdly isolated and out of touch with everything,like an alien. Smoked out in the bathroom( I have a fetish with smoking in public places)and drank some wine. Felt better. Ran to the club to dance for awhile. Felt a little more at ease on a dark dancefloor. I havent been doing that much lately and I feel it. I miss it. I wonder if it will ever be the same again. Probably not. Grimness.
I went over and checked out Jonathan's party for awhile. It was right down the street. I love Jonathan. He reminds me that all is well. And hes usually naked when I see him, which is nice :) His girlfriend Stephanie is very cool. She told me I was her idea of what a Goddess looks like. I said really??? WHY?? I didnt know how to respond. I certainly dont feel very attractive lately. Especially after seeing again what I was traded in for...and let me tell you folks, she aint all that... not at all. I hope it hurts his back having to bend over to kiss her! I did have a good chat with Aspen and Breeze also, and Rhett. Turns out my X husband was in his ward growing up. I was embarrassed to admit Id married into such a psycho family. Oh well. I got out soon enough. Only the last name still lingers. And my son of course!:)
I am getting my wisdom teeth yanked on Wednesday. They better give me lots of opiates.
Some fire happened over the weekend. The show friday at Ken Sanders pissed me off because everyone was over an hour late showing up. I got sick of waiting and left. I was in a pretty bad mood right off because I walked into an uncomfortable situation immediantly...one of those situations where smiling and acting civil to someone loathesome is simply out of the question. It made me feel so much, so fast I had to leave. Too much water to light a fire there. I still miss him terribly...and the sight of her still makes my insides want to turn out.
Saturday was the 25 year anniversary party for KRCL. We spun outside the entrance down at the Library. I half expected to run into trouble again, but no. I had fun dancing with Nancy and I saw Tamra and Jason there too. Zafod and Lola were there and are getting married on July 9th up at their ranch. Three days of partyin' down. I saw a bunch of people I know, yet I felt weirdly isolated and out of touch with everything,like an alien. Smoked out in the bathroom( I have a fetish with smoking in public places)and drank some wine. Felt better. Ran to the club to dance for awhile. Felt a little more at ease on a dark dancefloor. I havent been doing that much lately and I feel it. I miss it. I wonder if it will ever be the same again. Probably not. Grimness.
I went over and checked out Jonathan's party for awhile. It was right down the street. I love Jonathan. He reminds me that all is well. And hes usually naked when I see him, which is nice :) His girlfriend Stephanie is very cool. She told me I was her idea of what a Goddess looks like. I said really??? WHY?? I didnt know how to respond. I certainly dont feel very attractive lately. Especially after seeing again what I was traded in for...and let me tell you folks, she aint all that... not at all. I hope it hurts his back having to bend over to kiss her! I did have a good chat with Aspen and Breeze also, and Rhett. Turns out my X husband was in his ward growing up. I was embarrassed to admit Id married into such a psycho family. Oh well. I got out soon enough. Only the last name still lingers. And my son of course!:)
I am getting my wisdom teeth yanked on Wednesday. They better give me lots of opiates.