Freedom
Last thursday was wonderful. Not just because i got on really well with a certain boy (we walked through the city with our amrs around each other...he was drunk, but i dont care...), but because I felt something i've never felt before. For a long time now I've been wishing that my life was more exciting, adventurous i wish that i would do more impulsive things and live on the edge more, but i can never think of anything to do, or anynone who would do them with me.
Last thursday i was walking home down Summercourt drive when i bumped into John Taylor. It was 4.00am. He collapsed into the middle of the road and said "Hey come down here, the sky looks amazing. So before even saying "hi" I lay down in the middle of the road next to him and stared up at the sky. It was beautiful. So we lay like that for some time, I can't even remember what we talked about...probably me telling him about the wonderful night I had with the boy of my dreams. I talk about hima lot..especially when something dumm happens like he talked to me. Afterwards, when I was just turning up my street, I stopped and sat on the wall to enjoy the night for a few more minutes before going home.
That's when I realised something. No one was expecting me home. I was going to stay at mintys, but decided not too. So no one was expecting me to be anywhere. No one was waiting for me...No one would notice if I ddidnt show up for hours. And no one was around, or watching me. I realised that this is when it happens. This is when you explore, this is when you can get up to things and not get caught, this is when the city belongs only to you. I realised then that no matter how trapped i am at home, how retricted i am, or what people expect from me...just at that moment...the world was mine, and i was completely free.
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Last thursday i was walking home down Summercourt drive when i bumped into John Taylor. It was 4.00am. He collapsed into the middle of the road and said "Hey come down here, the sky looks amazing. So before even saying "hi" I lay down in the middle of the road next to him and stared up at the sky. It was beautiful. So we lay like that for some time, I can't even remember what we talked about...probably me telling him about the wonderful night I had with the boy of my dreams. I talk about hima lot..especially when something dumm happens like he talked to me. Afterwards, when I was just turning up my street, I stopped and sat on the wall to enjoy the night for a few more minutes before going home.
That's when I realised something. No one was expecting me home. I was going to stay at mintys, but decided not too. So no one was expecting me to be anywhere. No one was waiting for me...No one would notice if I ddidnt show up for hours. And no one was around, or watching me. I realised that this is when it happens. This is when you explore, this is when you can get up to things and not get caught, this is when the city belongs only to you. I realised then that no matter how trapped i am at home, how retricted i am, or what people expect from me...just at that moment...the world was mine, and i was completely free.
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