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I have to talk. I have to talk and get it off my chest.
He told me he didn't like Diana. Fine. And then more pictures are posted of him licking her and holding her, and taking her to a Formal. And it hurt so bad. I didn't sleep at all. Maybe four hours, and I dreamt of the situation. I dreamt I went to visit him and he was all over her and liked her more.
I feel replaced. He said he didn't break up with me because of her, but I think subconsciously he did. I think because they flirt and are physical, he didn't need it from me anymore. He didn't crave it so badly, because he gets just enough from her to be content. Then, I dunno, because he doesn't desperately need me as much, he thinks he "loves me less."
And it's like he doesn't even care about me anymore. How can he go from loving me so much and taking such good care of me and wanting me so badly to not wanting to even talk? How can he not feel guilty or bad or miss me at all? What is so wrong with me that guys do this to me? Why do I end up being treated like trash.
I never EVER expected, of ALL people, that he could, or would, make me feel like my exboyfriend made me feel. Yeah. It's that bad. I've been crying and not sleeping for a month.
What happens, if when I go to Oswego, he doesn't want to pick things back up? What if by then, he doesn't even want to see me?
What if he picks some girl he's known for a month, over the girl he's loved for a year?
I feel awful.
Why doesn't he give a shite about me anymore.
You see, I just...I trusted him. We seem so right. I gave him everything I had. And now I have nothing. How can he be fine with practically throwing away everything we have together? I want him to realize he's throwing away the best thing he ever had...
I trusted him so much...
He told me he didn't like Diana. Fine. And then more pictures are posted of him licking her and holding her, and taking her to a Formal. And it hurt so bad. I didn't sleep at all. Maybe four hours, and I dreamt of the situation. I dreamt I went to visit him and he was all over her and liked her more.
I feel replaced. He said he didn't break up with me because of her, but I think subconsciously he did. I think because they flirt and are physical, he didn't need it from me anymore. He didn't crave it so badly, because he gets just enough from her to be content. Then, I dunno, because he doesn't desperately need me as much, he thinks he "loves me less."
And it's like he doesn't even care about me anymore. How can he go from loving me so much and taking such good care of me and wanting me so badly to not wanting to even talk? How can he not feel guilty or bad or miss me at all? What is so wrong with me that guys do this to me? Why do I end up being treated like trash.
I never EVER expected, of ALL people, that he could, or would, make me feel like my exboyfriend made me feel. Yeah. It's that bad. I've been crying and not sleeping for a month.
What happens, if when I go to Oswego, he doesn't want to pick things back up? What if by then, he doesn't even want to see me?
What if he picks some girl he's known for a month, over the girl he's loved for a year?
I feel awful.
Why doesn't he give a shite about me anymore.
You see, I just...I trusted him. We seem so right. I gave him everything I had. And now I have nothing. How can he be fine with practically throwing away everything we have together? I want him to realize he's throwing away the best thing he ever had...
I trusted him so much...