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I want to do something. you know? be productive for everything everyone. I need to do something [how does it feel to need?]
I must take action. But for what.. or against what? I just. dont. know. I'm going to school soon. And it will be like any other day... just the same as always. and its pathetic. And I hate it. I hate it all so much.
I'm so sick of myself. I'm trying to change. But I have changed without even meaning to. I've become ....more withdrawn, less trusting, quiet I've gone inside myself... and I only let those who I really really like in. So that'd be Jackie.. and Kyle.. because I still like him. But I'm starting to Move on. I'd like to say I let nick in... but well.. I dont. I'm afraid to trust him. I spent my last bit of trust on Kyle and now its just gone...its stupid.
I must take action. But for what.. or against what? I just. dont. know. I'm going to school soon. And it will be like any other day... just the same as always. and its pathetic. And I hate it. I hate it all so much.
I'm so sick of myself. I'm trying to change. But I have changed without even meaning to. I've become ....more withdrawn, less trusting, quiet I've gone inside myself... and I only let those who I really really like in. So that'd be Jackie.. and Kyle.. because I still like him. But I'm starting to Move on. I'd like to say I let nick in... but well.. I dont. I'm afraid to trust him. I spent my last bit of trust on Kyle and now its just gone...its stupid.