Where is the answer?

[auximenes]

I just don't know what to do anymore
lying here naked on my bedroom floor
body covered in my own blood and tears
and my mind now soaked in my deepest fears

I always tried to do everything right
but it often turned to some sort of fight
with the weakest of fists and deadliest of words
our voices singing louder than the birds

I'm just a nobody looking for some help
wanting that feeling that I've never felt
like someone caring about you before them
doing your laundry at three a.m

I don't want to die if I can love you
But I don't want to live if this is what I'm going through
The only thing that I ever could want for us
is to be happier than the rest of these kids, on the bus

Right now I'm reaching deep inside myself
trying to keep my head together on the shelf
I'm trying my hardest to scoop up my brain
it's scattered and random just like the rain