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Wow...hmm its been awhile. im bored so i decided to write...
i cant wait to see mike on friday. i absolutely hate college. its unbearable without mike around. i'm defintely transfering to UC next quarter...i already sent in my application and everything. i just need to get my transcripts from east and here. the nice lady at uc told me one weekend when im home to just go ahead and call about setting up some meetings...so i guess that means im accepted?? who knows. all i know is ill be back with mike and thats all that matters to me. i love him. i love him a lot. i have never felt this way about anyone...not even ricky...which is suprising. its been four months which is suprising. no one has ever made it past two without taking a break. mike and i have decided we're always going to be together. i know theres always a chance it wont happen...but i believe it will. ahhh.
i seriously feel lost without him. ::Sigh::
i had a dream last night about him and i getting married....it was really cute. unlike every other dream i've had about my wedding...his face wasn't blury. it was mike alright. and it played out the entire wedding...vows and all...it was so detailed...i dont know.. it was scary...i woke up crying but i was crying in my dream ...
i just cant picture life without him...
he gets upset when we're on the phone and im talking about stuff that happens here...he wants me back there as much as i want to come back. as of right now...im gonna live with either my dad or my grandma until this summer...and if i can save enough money between then..i'm gonna move into an apartment...by that time mike will probably be done with all his court fines and such and he can move in with me. it'll be fun. haha we were walking around walmart one night around 2 and we were looking at their furniture and picking stuff out that would go in the apartment...he wants one of those big round chairs...it was cute.
i miss him sooooooooooooooo much. ah. i wanna cry right now...im listening to this cute craig david song that he's sang to me before. only 3 more classes til i get to go back to him. yumm.
enough about him for a minute...i was just looking at this picture of brandi sarah and i at prom junior year...i wondered whatever happened between us...we used to be so close. they used to be two of my best friends...now i talk to brandi every now and then...we havent talked much since school let out. and sarah...well she got wrapped up in her boyfriend and didnt have time for us.
hmm...when i move back, ill have to get back in touch with them. i miss them :( those were some good times...i love prom both times i went..i wish i would have gone senior year but oh well. too bad i def. went with scott junior year but didnt dance with him at all...hahahaha. oh well. i wish i would have known mike then...altho he did offer to take me to my senior prom and ditch his girlfriends prom that weekend...too bad i was dumb enough to not take him up on that offer...i didnt pick up on the fact that he really did like me...in fact when he first kissed me i thought he was just messing around...honestly i didnt figure out that he liked me until the night when i hung out with bobby and he saw us. he text me and told me how shitty it was that i was with bobby like that when he liked me a lot and bobby had screwed me over. which now i see is true. he fucked me over majorly and i couldnt look past him to see a great guy wanting to more than just friends...
oh well. i have mike now. thats all that matters. amber and bobby can fuck off for all i care. amber needs to leave him alone. he's mine now...she treated him like shit and now she lost him for good. and im glad i finally found him. he's the one...i know it.
but now im off to bed...i have english at 730.
i cant wait to see mike on friday. i absolutely hate college. its unbearable without mike around. i'm defintely transfering to UC next quarter...i already sent in my application and everything. i just need to get my transcripts from east and here. the nice lady at uc told me one weekend when im home to just go ahead and call about setting up some meetings...so i guess that means im accepted?? who knows. all i know is ill be back with mike and thats all that matters to me. i love him. i love him a lot. i have never felt this way about anyone...not even ricky...which is suprising. its been four months which is suprising. no one has ever made it past two without taking a break. mike and i have decided we're always going to be together. i know theres always a chance it wont happen...but i believe it will. ahhh.
i seriously feel lost without him. ::Sigh::
i had a dream last night about him and i getting married....it was really cute. unlike every other dream i've had about my wedding...his face wasn't blury. it was mike alright. and it played out the entire wedding...vows and all...it was so detailed...i dont know.. it was scary...i woke up crying but i was crying in my dream ...
i just cant picture life without him...
he gets upset when we're on the phone and im talking about stuff that happens here...he wants me back there as much as i want to come back. as of right now...im gonna live with either my dad or my grandma until this summer...and if i can save enough money between then..i'm gonna move into an apartment...by that time mike will probably be done with all his court fines and such and he can move in with me. it'll be fun. haha we were walking around walmart one night around 2 and we were looking at their furniture and picking stuff out that would go in the apartment...he wants one of those big round chairs...it was cute.
i miss him sooooooooooooooo much. ah. i wanna cry right now...im listening to this cute craig david song that he's sang to me before. only 3 more classes til i get to go back to him. yumm.
enough about him for a minute...i was just looking at this picture of brandi sarah and i at prom junior year...i wondered whatever happened between us...we used to be so close. they used to be two of my best friends...now i talk to brandi every now and then...we havent talked much since school let out. and sarah...well she got wrapped up in her boyfriend and didnt have time for us.
hmm...when i move back, ill have to get back in touch with them. i miss them :( those were some good times...i love prom both times i went..i wish i would have gone senior year but oh well. too bad i def. went with scott junior year but didnt dance with him at all...hahahaha. oh well. i wish i would have known mike then...altho he did offer to take me to my senior prom and ditch his girlfriends prom that weekend...too bad i was dumb enough to not take him up on that offer...i didnt pick up on the fact that he really did like me...in fact when he first kissed me i thought he was just messing around...honestly i didnt figure out that he liked me until the night when i hung out with bobby and he saw us. he text me and told me how shitty it was that i was with bobby like that when he liked me a lot and bobby had screwed me over. which now i see is true. he fucked me over majorly and i couldnt look past him to see a great guy wanting to more than just friends...
oh well. i have mike now. thats all that matters. amber and bobby can fuck off for all i care. amber needs to leave him alone. he's mine now...she treated him like shit and now she lost him for good. and im glad i finally found him. he's the one...i know it.
but now im off to bed...i have english at 730.