you ask me not to leave your side; you don't know who to trust...

[autumnsshadow]

0uroborus and i watched Martian Child last night. it reminded me of me. there are many(most?) of us around who are not quite of this world in some ways. now, i was neither adopted nor abused as a child, but my parents raised me to be who i am and i most certainly have created my own version of reality in order to fit myself into the world...and so have

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[ravenways]

Sometimes the hardest part of realizing that someone is digging, trying to crack our code, is the decision whether or not to let them continue. Because as much as we don't want to be found...we really do, at least part of the time. Sometimes we really do want to know that someone, somewhere, "gets" us, even if it's only for a moment, and on some levels it is both frightening and comforting to know that they were willing to work for it. That's why we don't really hide things as deeply as we lead others to believe. Most people don't/won't bother if it's not easy. So, full circle, making that decision can be dicey, because there's trust involved in knowing that someone is "digging" and letting them continue. It's a chance many people aren't willing to take, but sometimes, JUST sometimes, it's worth the risk.
I got more...but...

[autumnsshadow]

true. i think in my case, i like when people dig. i'm enough work as it is, i don't need to make it harder by being afraid of someone willing to put in the effort on top of it =P

[existdance]

while i agree with you, i still sometimes wonder how the hell i managed to end up being me when considering what my parents are like. i mean, i believe i've ended up less fucked up than i should have. or have just dealt with my fucked up-ness better? i dunno, i'm definitely being smug though.
yea, a lot of people never do bother to dig.
oh, and that was a cute movie.

[autumnsshadow]

i think some people manage to carve out their own way not matter what they were handed...

[onesnap]

Although I'm not a mirror image of either parent I have some traits from my Mom and some from my Dad. I'd like to think I'm a mix of both. The only bit that skipped over me and went to my brother is the ability to be the most laid back person on the planet.

I like taking the time to dig if it is someone I want to know better (or even if it is someone I've been close to for some time...there's always more there)

[autumnsshadow]

laid back is a pretty decent trait to have. =)

[autumnsshadow]

never too late to do differently though...

[catalyticdragon]

Seconded.

And I can completely relate to 0uroborus' comment - when love is conditional you'll tie yourself into knots to do the magic combination of moves that nets you the love you need.
And then the rules change...

It's a hard habit to break. Even now, I have to pause before I begin to twist, and try to ask myself what I'm doing and *why*.

[yogaqueen]

Would it be okay if I added you as a friend?

[autumnsshadow]

sure; your nickel. =)

how'd you come across me, btw? always curious.

[yogaqueen]

okcupid to be honest. you seem quite interesting.

[autumnsshadow]

thanks :) cupid name?