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i had the weirdest experience last night/this morning (haha, just got goosebumps thinking about it). i was EXHAUSTED after working/class from 9 to 9 so i basically flopped into bed. woke up an hour later, migrated to the couch (i do this 3-5x a week) then slept 2-5. woke up when my brother was making breakfast, was uncomfortable and had to bring blankets and stuffed animals to the couch (and princess mononoke with no intention of actually watching, just sleeping to the sound), succeeded in falling asleep again at 8am. but this is where it got weird.
right before i fell asleep, i had this tingly opiate-like feeling. then i felt like i was in this zone where lots of "something with no bodies" were walking around the living room, and at first it was okay then it FREAKED ME OUT and i woke up, grabbed my phone and started pacing. but i was super-exhausted still, so i lay back down and pulled the stuffies over me. SAME THING HAPPENED AGAIN only this time, i felt like i floated over to my bedroom door. and the outside door was wide open and creating a draft, so i closed my door to keep whatever was inside my room inside. instead, it started clamoring at the door and my doppelganger (??) was holding on to the doorknob trying to keep whatever from getting out. i can still see my door bending to the pounding of the something.
lol. i guess my dreams are telling me that i don't store my skeletons in the closet, but in my room. and apparently they walk around the living room sometimes.
that, or i should choose to sleep to anime that refers to spiritual beings less frequently.
ANYWAY. this is my first (and last) day off for a while. they scheduled me to close every night next week except for the night i have class. that's terrible. but it has inspired me to look for other jobs. right now, i'm communicating with a lady who runs the addiction counseling at coastal. i might end up getting hired there (which would be an AWESOME slap in the face to that ncf counselor.) i thought it was a little ironic at first, because i don't have a problem with people that do certain things...but i had to re-evaluate. i strongly, strongly dislike addictive substances. cocaine, heroin? i don't know anyone that uses these substances, but i know i CERTAINLY am opposed to them. and with good reason.
i'm also liking the suggestion in my last post to look for very different jobs. that might be just what i need to do (although i'm not sure where to start?)
damn! i'm talking about jobs again. what else is there to talk about...crystal's get-together last weekend was really quite nice, and made me realize that sometimes the best evenings are the most chill. the glenn beck wall was silly, as was the intention. i doubt glenn beck honestly gives a crap though.
queer ball tonight. i'm off, but i probably won't go. i've never been. i'm not uncomfortable with the subject, i'm just not entirely straight either and when you consider that i'm also asexual, it gets very confusing. bisexual and asexual sound like they cancel each other out. except i really would like a relationship sometime down the road, and i'm not opposed to either gender...the catch is that i'm just not interested in sex. hey, i never talk about this, do i? haha. whatever. i'm definitely not interested in a relationship of any sort anytime soon, so i shouldn't talk about this. i'm pretty sure it would change most people's perception of me (whatever that perception is) and the last thing i want to be associated with is anything remotely related to sexuality. there you go, THAT is it. that statement makes the most sense of anything i've said thus far: i do not want to be associated with sexuality. yep, yep, that's it! aaand that's probably why i'll stay home tonight. 0_o
right before i fell asleep, i had this tingly opiate-like feeling. then i felt like i was in this zone where lots of "something with no bodies" were walking around the living room, and at first it was okay then it FREAKED ME OUT and i woke up, grabbed my phone and started pacing. but i was super-exhausted still, so i lay back down and pulled the stuffies over me. SAME THING HAPPENED AGAIN only this time, i felt like i floated over to my bedroom door. and the outside door was wide open and creating a draft, so i closed my door to keep whatever was inside my room inside. instead, it started clamoring at the door and my doppelganger (??) was holding on to the doorknob trying to keep whatever from getting out. i can still see my door bending to the pounding of the something.
lol. i guess my dreams are telling me that i don't store my skeletons in the closet, but in my room. and apparently they walk around the living room sometimes.
that, or i should choose to sleep to anime that refers to spiritual beings less frequently.
ANYWAY. this is my first (and last) day off for a while. they scheduled me to close every night next week except for the night i have class. that's terrible. but it has inspired me to look for other jobs. right now, i'm communicating with a lady who runs the addiction counseling at coastal. i might end up getting hired there (which would be an AWESOME slap in the face to that ncf counselor.) i thought it was a little ironic at first, because i don't have a problem with people that do certain things...but i had to re-evaluate. i strongly, strongly dislike addictive substances. cocaine, heroin? i don't know anyone that uses these substances, but i know i CERTAINLY am opposed to them. and with good reason.
i'm also liking the suggestion in my last post to look for very different jobs. that might be just what i need to do (although i'm not sure where to start?)
damn! i'm talking about jobs again. what else is there to talk about...crystal's get-together last weekend was really quite nice, and made me realize that sometimes the best evenings are the most chill. the glenn beck wall was silly, as was the intention. i doubt glenn beck honestly gives a crap though.
queer ball tonight. i'm off, but i probably won't go. i've never been. i'm not uncomfortable with the subject, i'm just not entirely straight either and when you consider that i'm also asexual, it gets very confusing. bisexual and asexual sound like they cancel each other out. except i really would like a relationship sometime down the road, and i'm not opposed to either gender...the catch is that i'm just not interested in sex. hey, i never talk about this, do i? haha. whatever. i'm definitely not interested in a relationship of any sort anytime soon, so i shouldn't talk about this. i'm pretty sure it would change most people's perception of me (whatever that perception is) and the last thing i want to be associated with is anything remotely related to sexuality. there you go, THAT is it. that statement makes the most sense of anything i've said thus far: i do not want to be associated with sexuality. yep, yep, that's it! aaand that's probably why i'll stay home tonight. 0_o