don't tell me it could be worse i dont want to hear it

[autumnsinns]

So last Wednesday my boyfriend breaks up with me because I love him. This wednesday I get fired from my job.

Do they give me a real reason why. No. Do they let me say anything? No.

I've been doing my job at an amazing rate the last few weeks I can't say that I've really enjoyed being there as of late and thought of leaving however I have bills .. I have loan payments.

My desk has been caught up to the point where my underwriter can't even keep up with the files I give her.. Sometimes I dont even have anything to do so they find something for me to do. Does that sound like someone who is doing a bad job?

I dont think anything can get any worse for me right now. And to think maybe I'll get hit by a car next wednesday or better... raped. At least I know I won't turn up pregnant next week cause wouldnt that be a bitch.

I don't know what I've done to deserve all this bad karma. Life is so fucking shitty right now. I don't know what I'm going to do.

I'm gonna drown myself in a bottle of alcohol.

First person I call out of habit is Steve.. the guy that broke my heart a week ago. "I'm really sorry to hear that sweetie, I wish there was something I could do, at least you still have one of your jobs" "I'm really sorry, it's really shitty you lost your job".. My response.. "It's really shitty I've lost everything...!!!.. this is ridiculous I dont know why I called you.. sorry.. goodbye"..

I'm going to go drown myself in alcohol now..

Feel free to stomp on my heart, I'm numb..