Self control
I don't have it.
In any fucking sense.
But right now, I'm fighting with it in a smaller sense then I usually do, I need to save the 18 dollars I have to my name for later in the week, but I'm so down in the dumps all I wanna do is go buy as much rot-gut as I can and drink my pain and sorrows away. I'm hoping one of my friends will come through and take me away from these thoughts and shitty feelings, but I doubt it, thats why I am urged to drink.
This is bad.
really bad.
In any fucking sense.
But right now, I'm fighting with it in a smaller sense then I usually do, I need to save the 18 dollars I have to my name for later in the week, but I'm so down in the dumps all I wanna do is go buy as much rot-gut as I can and drink my pain and sorrows away. I'm hoping one of my friends will come through and take me away from these thoughts and shitty feelings, but I doubt it, thats why I am urged to drink.
This is bad.
really bad.