..Y regreso aquí otra vez y comienzo
Yet again I sit here and type out another entry to add into this journal of mine. Something I've missed doing. Yes.. I'm back again. Feeling and doing 99% better. So things have changed, yes. Gotten better? yes. For how long? who knows. I'm living for the moment and that's all that matters to me. Within this past month Sara &I have established an amazing friendship. One in which I'm very proud to have. We talk about problems alot more and we help each other out with everything. I hope she doesn't get sick of me. I've also been trying to work out three other friendships. 3 girls in which I adore. Lizz, Jazzy, and Jill.. all beautiful lovely girls. 2 friendships in which I'm giving up on due to lack to motivation to even try anymore. Sorry Elena &Eryn. I've been working on my attitude and personality.. making myself more understanding and worthy. Making myself a better person &friend for everyone. And 1 friendship in which I have put so much effort into. For this one makes me weak in the knees. This one I love. Tony.. my love.
Many things are going on right now. Alot of new things will be started in my life. I'm excited. Tomorrow I have an interview at Wegmans.. Hopefully I get this job, because it will be my first. If I don't get that job.. I shall go on and apply for Spirit and Pizza Hut. I have to register for dance on September 3rd. This will be my 13th year dancing their.. and I plan on getting a better technique. Not only will I take my 3 classes I take every year. Which are Tap, Jazz, and Ballet/Lyrical.. but I'm also thinking about taking Pointe. It's a challenge I'm willing to take. And it will fuck my pretty feet up bad. But I know I can do it.. and look good doing it. When I dance I have such elegance. I love elegance and beauty. And that's all a part of Ballet. And also a part of me. I don't think I'm ready for a solo yet. Maybe next year. School starts in 1 week. I will be a junior. It's exciting. This year I will try my best to show how smart I am.. and to show how much ability I have. Maybe this year I'll have a different dance teacher. If I have Mrs.Wexler [the dance teacher from hell] again.. I'll choke myself and everyone in my class to death! I recently volunteered to be a Big Sister and was rejected. Due to being under the age of 18. Oh well. The lady gave me another number to call. Hopefully I can do something along those lines. Tomorrow I shall call the other place to volunteer to be a dog walker/cat socialist. So many good things to look forward too..
Last night was.. THE BEST NIGHT OF MY FUCKING SUMMER/LIFE!!!.. oh my dear god. Last night was the Atreyu/God Forbid/Darkest Hour/Underoath show. It was weird because there were alot of people I didn't know. Some I did. Underoath was fun to watch. Good times watching the key board played rock out like a retard! They played this one song I kinda liked.. I think it was "When The Sun Sleeps". Darkest Hour wasn't as good as I would of expected.. but they still amazed me. Just because they are sofucking\m/etal.. and I love them. Next GOD FORBID.. Honestly.. Could they of been anymore fucking amazing? Really though? ..They definately played my favorite song "Broken Promise". Tony rocked the fuck out. It turned me on. I must admit. Fucking amazing band. Then there was Atreyu.. ok these guys got gay! it's not even cool. As much as I hate them. I love them. I just wanted them to play the only 3 songs I like.. and they did. "Ain't Love Grand", "Lip Gloss &Black", and "Tulips are Better". I rocked out to those songs. And definately durning "Tulips are Better" when he sings "Just wither away real beauty is forever in you" ..I was up there singing. I hopped on top of some peoples sholder and got to sing in the mic with the singer for like 2 minutes. I was all excited and shit. I got to finally meet the ever so lovely Megan. She's a doll. I also seen other lovely people; Jessi, Ron; Josh; Amy; Kory; Jazzy; and Jill! I got hugs.. thank you to those who gave. After the show Sara &I stuck around. Got to fucking meet GOD FORBID! ..omg.. Dallas is amazing. I got to hug him and talk to him. He kept telling me I was very beautiful and HE FUCKING KISSED MY HAND!!! ughughgu. I also got to hug Doc..and Bryon. guhughguhg again. Those guys are fucking sweet. They invited us to party with them at there hotel room on Maple Rd. To bad I had to be up this mourning to babysit and I was fucking tired as it was. They left and we started talking to the guys of Atreyu and Underoath. Funny kids. Headed to Mighty Taco and that was good times. I wish I had more nights like that..
Some highlights of the night consisted of; LIZZ BEING HOME!!, meeting Megan, meeting Sara, singing with Atreyu, meeting GF, meeting Atryu, meeting Underoath, Punk'd, fags with make up, getting a kiss on the hand from Dallas; hugging Doc; talking to Chris; singing @Mighty Taco; mike the sound guy, [w]rapper party, oooOooooooooOOOOOOhs!, gun shots, hugs, and good kids.
That's all for me..
..Now watch as it destroys me..