work and wedding consume my life
lot's of stuff going on...
work:
has been busy and i although i've been dealing with it somewhat better, i just can't tolerate the bullshit sometimes. i'm rethinking the supervisor position i put in for. i haven't heard anything yet, but i don't know i'm just wondering if it's really something that i want to do. i mostly decided to put in for it because of the salary increase, because god knows i need the money. i'm just wondering if i can really do it. i'm doubting myself and if i'm really the best candidate. i'm hoping that confidence will come with time, just not too much time. but like anything else, i won't know until (and if) i get there. sometimes i have to be thrown into a situation to prove to myself that i can really do something. maybe this one of them.
wedding:
i took the day off yesterday, which was most needed and went to a taste testing at the reception place. my parents and fiance of course came along. the food was good, and i was happy with it. we ate alot and after we had our fill we walked around the place and i showed my dad the room that we're getting and everything. he seemed happy and told me that he was proud of me. there's going to be 3 more taste testings before my wedding, and i can go to all of them if i choose to. i most likely will, because the more food i taste (for free) the better!
the only thing i'm kind of upset about, is that the gazebo where i'm to have my ceremony, now has a huge billboard to the right of it and hovers above it. that wasn't there when i booked this place for my wedding, and it's huge. it'll be in all my outdoor pictures..so i'm not sure what i'm going to do. i have to go this month to put down another deposit, and i think when i talk to the manager i'm going to ask either that they deduct something off my bill or find out if i can have the ceremony on the terrace that's right off the room we booked. because in all honesty i would've never booked my ceremony there if that billboard was there. it just detracts from it something awful. so we'll see what they say.
i have 2 appointments with florists next weekend. i made one with the florist my friend used for her wedding, but i was very turned off when i called. i was rushed off the phone, they barely took any info from me other than my wedding date, and was told they could try to squeeze me in saturday, but asked if sunday would be ok, which was fine. at the end of the conversation, i had to ask for the person's name. he told me he'd confirm my appointment today and call me, which he didn't do. this leaves a very bad taste in my mouth, and really doesn't make me too enthusiastic to do business with them.
the other florist i called, i have an appointment with on saturday, and they were very accomondating. so this should prove to be interesting. i have no idea what to expect, and i know the price is going to be more than i want it to be. my friend spent $3000 on flowers. i can't do that at all. so, we'll see.
and last but not least, my grandmother called me to tell me that the places i picked in tahoe from the timeshare were booked, and the other once i picked was non-smoking. so i went online to look at some other places and for the most part they're all non-smoking. one place is even non-smoking outside. i don't know what i'm going to do. i really have my heart set on lake tahoe, and aside from the smoking situation, it seems that alot of the places are already booked solid.
one may say, this is the perfect time to quit. and maybe there's some truth to that...but i really resent having to quit just because i want to stay somewhere. i like my cigarettes, and i'm not ready to quit yet. plus, asking me to lose weight and quit smoking at the same time, is just torture and impossible and i won't do it. so i don't know what solution i'm going to come up with. my grandmother wants to pay for the week and everything as our wedding gift which i'm really grateful for, but i'm afraid i won't be able to use, because it seems as though most of these places are smoke free.
and that's about it. one more day to work, and it's the weekend. thank god. even having one day off doesn't help. have the dentist sunday and i'm looking forward to just chilling out. i don't know why i act like that's not what i do every weekend. ugh, whatever.
work:
has been busy and i although i've been dealing with it somewhat better, i just can't tolerate the bullshit sometimes. i'm rethinking the supervisor position i put in for. i haven't heard anything yet, but i don't know i'm just wondering if it's really something that i want to do. i mostly decided to put in for it because of the salary increase, because god knows i need the money. i'm just wondering if i can really do it. i'm doubting myself and if i'm really the best candidate. i'm hoping that confidence will come with time, just not too much time. but like anything else, i won't know until (and if) i get there. sometimes i have to be thrown into a situation to prove to myself that i can really do something. maybe this one of them.
wedding:
i took the day off yesterday, which was most needed and went to a taste testing at the reception place. my parents and fiance of course came along. the food was good, and i was happy with it. we ate alot and after we had our fill we walked around the place and i showed my dad the room that we're getting and everything. he seemed happy and told me that he was proud of me. there's going to be 3 more taste testings before my wedding, and i can go to all of them if i choose to. i most likely will, because the more food i taste (for free) the better!
the only thing i'm kind of upset about, is that the gazebo where i'm to have my ceremony, now has a huge billboard to the right of it and hovers above it. that wasn't there when i booked this place for my wedding, and it's huge. it'll be in all my outdoor pictures..so i'm not sure what i'm going to do. i have to go this month to put down another deposit, and i think when i talk to the manager i'm going to ask either that they deduct something off my bill or find out if i can have the ceremony on the terrace that's right off the room we booked. because in all honesty i would've never booked my ceremony there if that billboard was there. it just detracts from it something awful. so we'll see what they say.
i have 2 appointments with florists next weekend. i made one with the florist my friend used for her wedding, but i was very turned off when i called. i was rushed off the phone, they barely took any info from me other than my wedding date, and was told they could try to squeeze me in saturday, but asked if sunday would be ok, which was fine. at the end of the conversation, i had to ask for the person's name. he told me he'd confirm my appointment today and call me, which he didn't do. this leaves a very bad taste in my mouth, and really doesn't make me too enthusiastic to do business with them.
the other florist i called, i have an appointment with on saturday, and they were very accomondating. so this should prove to be interesting. i have no idea what to expect, and i know the price is going to be more than i want it to be. my friend spent $3000 on flowers. i can't do that at all. so, we'll see.
and last but not least, my grandmother called me to tell me that the places i picked in tahoe from the timeshare were booked, and the other once i picked was non-smoking. so i went online to look at some other places and for the most part they're all non-smoking. one place is even non-smoking outside. i don't know what i'm going to do. i really have my heart set on lake tahoe, and aside from the smoking situation, it seems that alot of the places are already booked solid.
one may say, this is the perfect time to quit. and maybe there's some truth to that...but i really resent having to quit just because i want to stay somewhere. i like my cigarettes, and i'm not ready to quit yet. plus, asking me to lose weight and quit smoking at the same time, is just torture and impossible and i won't do it. so i don't know what solution i'm going to come up with. my grandmother wants to pay for the week and everything as our wedding gift which i'm really grateful for, but i'm afraid i won't be able to use, because it seems as though most of these places are smoke free.
and that's about it. one more day to work, and it's the weekend. thank god. even having one day off doesn't help. have the dentist sunday and i'm looking forward to just chilling out. i don't know why i act like that's not what i do every weekend. ugh, whatever.