oh how you can love
so you know when you crush on a guy for ages?
a totally unsuitable guy I should add
the kind of guy you like because he's hot to start off with
and then because he challenges you
and then because of his arrogance
and then because he's kinda sweet underneath it all
and then you're totally screwed because you're just finding more reasons to like him?
anyway, he's gorgeous and ohsoarrogant and perfect
but I have serious self confidence issues so he's way too hot for me
and his really seriously unhot friend has a thing for me
(as aside note, the only guys who ever fall for me...are so not in my league, but then I guess I fell for J and I'm not in his...)
so for ages he tried to set us up.
in a really persistent way, and I kept saying no, no, no.
and it was ifne and we were getting to be really good jokey friends you know?
but there have been these moments, like when we talk and he sorta traps me in a corner
or how he comes and gives me hugs if our teacher is mean to me
and then yesterday I had study in the library with my friend in period 3
and he was sitting at the table opposite us (yes, I'm that pathetic)
and half way through the lesson my friend turned to me and said, "you realise that J has been watching you all lesson right?"
so...maybe, maybe there's something there. just maybe.
but it makes me happy.