Minorly confused
So I hardly ever update these things... I have issues... I have 2 people that want relationships from me that I have really no interest in... I like 2 other people that one doesn't want a relationship and the other lives so far away. The one that lives far away I really think I have feelings for... wish he wasn't so far so I could find out for real... He's just a really good guy and listens to the same type of music... went through similar things that I have.. understanding, sweet, kind, caring... just everything.. the other that I like is really kinda blah... We have a great time hanging out but he always seems to remind me not to fall for him cause he doens't want to get into any relationships... not just with me.. but with anyone... So really I should forget about this one... and just keep him as a friend and nothing more...
The more I talk with Michael (the ones that lives far away) the more I am learning to forget about anything else.. He said last night that he had drama with his ex-wife so he would call me later... I waited up online and never saw him.. he left a message before he left for work this morning saying he didn't make it back until late and didn't want to call.. and that he would talk to me later... He hasnt' been online since.. I just want to find out what happened and if he's ok.. it kills me not knowing.. i'm so curious that way... its really a flaw I have.. I have to know everything... its a pain in the ass for me... I would call him but I dont know if he is just out or not... I dont want to bother him... he will write me at some point.. I should be more patient... ah patience... something I tend not to have alot of the time... but then procrastinate like hell.. how does that work... oh well...
The other thing I think about is the fact that I have only been out of my marriage since november... its only been a few months... I dont want to jump into anything fast... I wont go down that road again... and will take my time and get my life straight first before anything... I dont mind dating and such but to get into anything serious would be too much at this point in the life... eventually yes... but for right now... i'll take my time.. pay off some bills.. and concentrate on me... and have fun.. thats what i'm all about right now.. is fun... :)
The more I talk with Michael (the ones that lives far away) the more I am learning to forget about anything else.. He said last night that he had drama with his ex-wife so he would call me later... I waited up online and never saw him.. he left a message before he left for work this morning saying he didn't make it back until late and didn't want to call.. and that he would talk to me later... He hasnt' been online since.. I just want to find out what happened and if he's ok.. it kills me not knowing.. i'm so curious that way... its really a flaw I have.. I have to know everything... its a pain in the ass for me... I would call him but I dont know if he is just out or not... I dont want to bother him... he will write me at some point.. I should be more patient... ah patience... something I tend not to have alot of the time... but then procrastinate like hell.. how does that work... oh well...
The other thing I think about is the fact that I have only been out of my marriage since november... its only been a few months... I dont want to jump into anything fast... I wont go down that road again... and will take my time and get my life straight first before anything... I dont mind dating and such but to get into anything serious would be too much at this point in the life... eventually yes... but for right now... i'll take my time.. pay off some bills.. and concentrate on me... and have fun.. thats what i'm all about right now.. is fun... :)