Hard
It's hard going through life trying to figure out what you want and trying to get some stuff you know you need. While also you have someone who already knows what they want and are getting it. It's their life and time. I want that so i can stop sitting here dwelling on things i don't need to. Something to take my time so i'm not all up on the person. They're my life, but theirs is something else with me added on. And to top it off the people in his thing don't even approve or like me. Yes, i wasn't the sweetest person at first, but it wasn't them. I hated staying alone at the house and wanted that person with me and i also they would talk of their thing and i would stay in it as long as i could, but after a while they would be way to deep for me and i'd just sit there in my own world till i heard a new topic. It didn't mean i was being snob or anything. You can only try so much. Some things are just way above your head. And i don't want to come in between that, but i would like some thought every now and then. I'm not talking about every day in the same way, but just every now and then in some random way. Message, comment, text, quick email, quick voice mail when you know im at work and cant pick up, but id have a nice thinking of you message for me later. You know? Idk It's just hard being 2nd thoughts. I know i see the person everyday and night, but knowing someone is on your mind when you're not together is a great feeling.
Anyway, that was random and not meant for anything but myself. I really don't want to bring up stuff my bring is throwing around, but i needed somewhere. And sadly this is all i have so i don't cause a misunderstanding fight or worry people i don't want worrying. Night!
Anyway, that was random and not meant for anything but myself. I really don't want to bring up stuff my bring is throwing around, but i needed somewhere. And sadly this is all i have so i don't cause a misunderstanding fight or worry people i don't want worrying. Night!