Apr 09, 2008 23:17
No one home, but me and the kitty, bored, not sleepy, nothing to do, no food, etc etc. Grocery shopping needed to be done like last week!!! My body is like starving for everything!!! The cat is sleeping next to me and is no fun!!! The same old same is on TV!!! And no one online will talk long!!! LoL But it's all good. Peanut butter solves EVERYTHING!!! Yummy!!! LoL Got me in trouble the other night though. Since we have like no food i had a candy bar and peanut butter for dinner after work. Well, i got a total sugar high! I was rolling around bed singing all kinds of songs i could make up and like attacking Lewis. And until he went out to get my cell from my car i kept singing, "All by itself. The cellular phone" and "Cell phone, cell phone, is all alone." Finally he got it and the whole time he was gone i kept singing how i was alone and in the dark. LoL It was quite fun, but we both had to be up early and it was like already 1am. He was like, "Honey, you really need to calm down and shut up." LoL I eventually did, but it was hard. LoL :)
:Sigh: You know what. I am sooo jealous of people in my life. LoL It's not a bad jealous. I am sooo happy for them, but i want a little too. But then again i'm not ready for their stuff. Their lives are ready and moving forward and i'm excited to be involved and watching them. It's just i can't wait till mine is ready for some stuff. I'm not trying to rush things, but i'm not like most 20 year olds out there, yes i am referring to myself as 20 a few days early. ;) Like, i'm not a person that has to party every weekend. I like being home, hanging out with friends and just talking, watching movies, going shopping, and etc. Spending days with my parents and catching up with them. I have huge ideas and plans for my future that most don't see until mid 20's and such.I'm just older then i should be in what i want. I'm still a lil off on what i want to do job wise, but i think i have it. I'm just scared......
How bout we just skip to that. I reallllly have always just wanted to be a stay at home mom, but i still want to work and earn my half for my family. So, opening my own business has always been my dream, but i'm so scared. Anything can go wrong. It could never pick up and become money making. The loan to open it could be to much and just take my business down. Could i handle the stress? Would i need to hire a couple helpers? Mainly, would the money and investment be worth it?! I really want to open my own dog kennel/day care. Like, you could drop them off while you are on vacation or just for a few hours of the day so you can go out of town or something. I would also take grooming classes and you could just stop by and get them groomed. Then later after that took off some i would have a add on to rescue all animals and find them good homes or keep some there. And even later add training classes to the kennel for your pups. I have such huge plans, but i have no idea where to start. Should i go to VA Western or National College and get a business degree to help me know how to handle opening a business OR just go into it after talking to others and just getting advice and training from them. I just don't know. Like, i don't want to start it now, but if i need the schooling i would like to start that as soon as i can. I love animals!!! And working with them everyday and saving them just sounds like an awesome way to live my life. I just don't know if i have the nerve or trust to try out my own thing. :Sigh: I realllly want to though so i'm thinking about it realllly seriously. And if it bailed on me and i did take business classes least i would have that under me. There are lots of jobs i could choose from with that under my belt. We shall see though....just taking time to think it through. Gonna start talking to some people at work, mainly the costumers, to see how they made their business start and pop. :)
Head is about to explode so im off here. Later y'all. Much love.