I Spread the Love
Yep, i took my own advice yesterday and it sucked! Like i said, me and Lewis had to work, but we could have had the night together to exchange gifts and just be together a little and do the lovey stuff. Well, that didn't happen. After work i had a nice crying car ride with the saddest music i could find and spent my Valentine's night at my momma's. Reason? Some guy called in sick at Lewis' work, like i believe that guy was really sick, and when they asked Lewis if he could fill in and work the 24 hr shift he said yes! They said they could look for other people, but nope, Lewis just took it. Here is a job that you have worked for, for 4 weeks and have not got one paycheck! They told you, you would have 40 hrs a week and work 9-5 everyday, but they lied to you. You hardly get 40 hrs and you work whenever they feel like they need you. I thought you wanted to get away from that kind of work? The reason you left Lowes? Well, you just went into the same atmosphere for less money and a 15 min extra drive and you want to suck up and help them?! I don't understand it at all. The night before you told me all these plans how you would have my gift all ready for me and how we would exchange and just have a nice night together and yeah, did i cross your mind at all when you made that decision? I know jobs are important and you need to do your best, but one, they don't deserve any nice treatment right now till they know how to pay people,and two, sometimes your job should not be your #1. Thanks for trying to send me flowers, but to be honest i could have cared less bout the gift, flowers,or candy. All i wanted for my Valentine's Day night was to be with you, have some cuddle time on the couch and bed, and just be with you. I don't know. I didn't get to have him last year because of class and this year it's because of work. He was suppose to have class but they canceled. I bet you would have said no if you had class. Well, least then i would have seen you.
Sorry about that, but it was a horrible night. I was gonna go home, but i was crying so bad i just couldn't go home and be by myself and sleep in this huge bed all alone. So, i booked it to mom where i cried my eyes out some more and told her everything. I know he has to do what he has to do, but it would be nice for once to feel important,that he would keep a promise with me and stop trying to get brownie points with everybody else who doesn't give a shit and to the person where he has very little left at all. I'm just glad mom was nice and not lecturing and just listened to me, gave me hugs, and my daddy made brownies. It wasn't the night i wanted, but being with my parents and my puppy and having a big bowl of ice cream with a side of brownie, i was doing good this week, but i didnt eat anything during the day so i didn't feel to guilty, thanks bubba. How can chocolate in any form not help? LoL But yeah, I just gave all my love to them. They have always been there and would drop anything if i needed them. They rock! I also gave mom flowers for this day. Needed to spread the love to someone! LoL In the end though it was just a very lonely night on a small couch, i wanted as little room to sleep as i could find. It was good to have the parents, but it just wasn't the same after having my hopes smashed down. But what can you do. It just sucks always being #2.
So, for the final conclusion girls. Feel lucky sometimes you don't have a bf. They can cause more problems then not having one. You can plan a night with girls you know will be there and just have a great time. Boys just have their own plans and brains and not always what you want. They are great to have, but not as reliable as the bffs. Later y'all.