if your wanting to get to know me this is it....as well as i have been thinking about things

[autumndearheart]

i swear something is going on with me
but what the fuck is it?
each time i dont think about it it only gets worst
hmmm....
i guess i miss certain people alot like hella hardcore lol
but im serious it sux
not knowing who you can trust and who not to cause of course you think you can trust them but then they trun around and that person is gone...
im a fucking idiot
for letting it happen
so now on if i dont seem like im talking much to anyone you know why
cause i dont want to get hurt or having to think about if i can trust you or not but its not your fault
its mine
cause everyone who knows me really well
knows that its already hard to get to know me
tell this day everyone that i know still has a hard time
and also a hard time for me telling them how i feel
about certain things or alot of things
but thats me and if you dont like it and think you can change me in any way by trying to open me up your wrong
alot of people tried and it doesnt go that far
just giving heads up now
to people wanting to get to know me
:/ i need a boyfriend.....
evoluoy