2 months later
I'm happy.
Really, amazingly, blissfully happy. I don't write in my liveournal mostly because i don't have time to ponder deep thoughts, rather i'm living my life one moment at a time, soaking in almost unbearable joy of being loved, desired, taken care of, and discovering new horizons.
I love my life.
Are things perfect? No. That would mean that there was no room for improvement, no bar to reach for. I still have some sadness around Silas and that things had to go the way did but he's moving forward with his life even as i plunge forward with mine. I don't run as much as i'd like (or hardly at all, really), and my second-hand mattress is a bit lumpy. But, for God's sake, if that's what i have to complain about, i'm in pretty great shape.
I'll say it again, I love my life.
Really, amazingly, blissfully happy. I don't write in my liveournal mostly because i don't have time to ponder deep thoughts, rather i'm living my life one moment at a time, soaking in almost unbearable joy of being loved, desired, taken care of, and discovering new horizons.
I love my life.
Are things perfect? No. That would mean that there was no room for improvement, no bar to reach for. I still have some sadness around Silas and that things had to go the way did but he's moving forward with his life even as i plunge forward with mine. I don't run as much as i'd like (or hardly at all, really), and my second-hand mattress is a bit lumpy. But, for God's sake, if that's what i have to complain about, i'm in pretty great shape.
I'll say it again, I love my life.