In Memory, 050612.
hose we love don't go away, they walk beside us every day.
Unseen, unheard, but always near; still loved, still missed and very dear.
- Anonymous
Losing someone has got to be the most painful thing ever. Lost my granduncle last December. On Tuesday, 5 June, my beloved grandaunt had reunited with my granduncle. Watching her in pain was such a heartache and torture for me, what's more for her who's going through the pain? Relieved yet can't bear for her to leave, but one thing I've learnt to accept is that memories & good times still stays even though a person is not around any longer.
My grandaunt - I call her Lao Xing, is someone who brought me up. Been staying with my grandaunt/uncle ever since I was a baby, Lao Xing's love for me is beyond what anyone can imagine :') I'm so thankful for her years of love, care & concern towards me. She's someone who doesn't really express her thoughts through words, but through actions. She would cook my favorite chicken with black sauce, spinach soup, fried rice, fried eggs with prawns & etc. Haven't got to taste her cooking ever since she couldn't walk about a year or two ago, but somehow the taste of the dishes she used to cook so often for me throughout the years still lingers. I wonder when will I ever get to taste these familiar taste again... I would go to the market with her every morning when I was in kindergarten to get breakfast/groceries, funny how I hate the smell of markets now. I clearly remember that almost every single day after kindergarten, Lao Xing would cook and pack my favorite fried rice for lunch! The only reason why I've difficulty eating fishes with bones now is because of how much Lao Xing pampered me. She would carefully separate the meat of the fishes so I could eat without worrying about the bones, and also peeling the shells of the prawns for me. She still does it for me when I'm in secondary school. I'm just so pampered by her. When I started getting busy in secondary school, I only visited her once every week or once in a while, yet she still cooked my favourite dishes whenever I'm visiting. Cooking for me is her way of expressing her love for me :) I love how we always talk about random stuffs every night before we sleep, really miss those days.
The only thing she tells me is to visit her whenever I can, and I'm glad I did. It is really the only thing both my grandaunt & granduncle ever asked from me, just visiting them and to spend quality time with them. They don't expect any more. I've always hoped that they would be alive to see my get married, have kids and all. One of the greatest fear I had in life was having the both of them leave me, and it just happened in a span of half a year. I don't know if I'll be able to handle this, but I know the Lord had really prepared my heart to face her death this time. Granduncle's death was a shock to me. Thank You Jesus! I believe & proclaim that the both of them are happily with You in heaven, and that I'll reunite with them when it's my turn to be up there!
Lao Xing really reminds me of a Proverbs 31 woman... :)
Thank you my lovely friends & my awesome Lifegroup for coming down to the wake. Your presence really means so so much, and thank you, friends, for your concern and encouragements. Thank you :)
Lao Xing, treasured in my heart you'll stay, untill we meet again some day. I love you, always.