Pissed off (STRONG LANGUAGE)
I haven't been this pissed off in a VERY long time. What the fuck is the deal with people who think lying is how you treat a friend? I mean my fucking GOD, is it common practice to stab someone in the back that has done nothing but bend over backwards and be there for them through all sorts of shit???
You know Im SO fucking sick of people using us, we offer so much to people we call/ed friends. You know, I guess what pisses me off is when someone lies to me, to my face and it comes out that "its been in the works a long time" WTF is THAT? You know Im not going to name any names here, bcz, well, I dont think its necessary. But we gave you hosting, we GAVE it to you, we told you over and over that even though our main site was on hiatus that you HAD hosting forever if you wanted it! We TOLD you we were going on hiatus and WHY, my son is much more important then trying to keep a doll site updated, we TOLD you that our current host was paid up through the end of Dec 2004 and that we were going to renew it then. You know I dont give a shit that you moved your site, what fucking hurts and pisses me off is you LIED about it. You said "Im closing my site" when what you MEANT was "Im moving hosts", you said you did this bcz you didnt know how long we were going to keep ours? BULLSHIT...I go to the "new" site and read its been in the works a LONG time? yet you didnt give US the fucking time of day to tell us until 2 goddamned days ago??? You know, your entagled with someone that has done nothing but lie to you, lied to us, pulled shit that even YOU came to us over, you told me (and I have the fucking IM's) that you were tired of this persons crap and you were ending the relationship, yet that didnt happen, your stuck in a "friendhsip" that the other person does nothing but whine, bitch and critisize your art, yet you stay??? you stay in a relationship that this other person controls who you are, where you go, and who you talk to...hell you even stepped down at one forum using the reasoning of "family life is too much" not 2 days after a huge blow up with said person.
As of now, Im walking away, Josh was nicer then I am becz I despise liars, users and most especially people who back stab me. I have some dear, dear friends that are also friends of yours and I truly hope that they dont end up as hurt and used as Josh and I have ended up. I cant believe we fucking listend to you and "this friend" you value SO fucking highly as to let them verbally manipulate you that Josh and I lost some friends that may well have been innocent.
We have tried over and over to get you to talk to us and you refused, yet you obviously have no problem talking to this "other friend" who has obviously been running their mouth spreading lies, which by the way, I save and have always saved all IM's, Im just not the type to go to someone else and show them the IM's where you both were bagging on each other and saying horrid things, unlike some I know who had no qualms doing that and lying about it. I have my true friends, and yes, some are online, and they have witnessed this bullshit, hell, even before they became our friends, so I know who sticks by our side.
I hope someday you wake up and realise just what you have fucked up and just what a hole you have dug for yourself. I wish for you love and happiness, but I dont choose to be entangled in your web of lies, your schemes and your avoidances.
This is my journal, my entry and because for over 2 months I havent been "allowed" to get to the bottom of the lies and deciets, I am using MY journal to heal my hurts.
You know Im SO fucking sick of people using us, we offer so much to people we call/ed friends. You know, I guess what pisses me off is when someone lies to me, to my face and it comes out that "its been in the works a long time" WTF is THAT? You know Im not going to name any names here, bcz, well, I dont think its necessary. But we gave you hosting, we GAVE it to you, we told you over and over that even though our main site was on hiatus that you HAD hosting forever if you wanted it! We TOLD you we were going on hiatus and WHY, my son is much more important then trying to keep a doll site updated, we TOLD you that our current host was paid up through the end of Dec 2004 and that we were going to renew it then. You know I dont give a shit that you moved your site, what fucking hurts and pisses me off is you LIED about it. You said "Im closing my site" when what you MEANT was "Im moving hosts", you said you did this bcz you didnt know how long we were going to keep ours? BULLSHIT...I go to the "new" site and read its been in the works a LONG time? yet you didnt give US the fucking time of day to tell us until 2 goddamned days ago??? You know, your entagled with someone that has done nothing but lie to you, lied to us, pulled shit that even YOU came to us over, you told me (and I have the fucking IM's) that you were tired of this persons crap and you were ending the relationship, yet that didnt happen, your stuck in a "friendhsip" that the other person does nothing but whine, bitch and critisize your art, yet you stay??? you stay in a relationship that this other person controls who you are, where you go, and who you talk to...hell you even stepped down at one forum using the reasoning of "family life is too much" not 2 days after a huge blow up with said person.
As of now, Im walking away, Josh was nicer then I am becz I despise liars, users and most especially people who back stab me. I have some dear, dear friends that are also friends of yours and I truly hope that they dont end up as hurt and used as Josh and I have ended up. I cant believe we fucking listend to you and "this friend" you value SO fucking highly as to let them verbally manipulate you that Josh and I lost some friends that may well have been innocent.
We have tried over and over to get you to talk to us and you refused, yet you obviously have no problem talking to this "other friend" who has obviously been running their mouth spreading lies, which by the way, I save and have always saved all IM's, Im just not the type to go to someone else and show them the IM's where you both were bagging on each other and saying horrid things, unlike some I know who had no qualms doing that and lying about it. I have my true friends, and yes, some are online, and they have witnessed this bullshit, hell, even before they became our friends, so I know who sticks by our side.
I hope someday you wake up and realise just what you have fucked up and just what a hole you have dug for yourself. I wish for you love and happiness, but I dont choose to be entangled in your web of lies, your schemes and your avoidances.
This is my journal, my entry and because for over 2 months I havent been "allowed" to get to the bottom of the lies and deciets, I am using MY journal to heal my hurts.