Across the Universe
So, Kate and I rode into the city today to see Across the Universe. I liked it, it's funny how something like that can make you nostalgic for a period of time you never lived in. Watching it, though, I couldn't help feel like once they got to New York there was this whole kind of New York youth life that I'm just not feeling here. I get that a lot when I see the city displayed in media.
It's probably predominantly because it's fiction, but I don't know. Part of me wonders if I should stay out here for a while after school ends, just to get a job somewhere and feel like I really lived here, instead of feeling like I commute in for school and shopping (and, apparently, movies). I don't see that happening, though. I mean, there are a ton of jobs and all, but I guess I feel somehow transparent without the people who are a big part of me. Like, I spent all this time and emotion investing in where I lived and the people who I love, and even if there's some media idea of how young people should want to run off to New York to work toward some kind of revolution, I really don't think I want to. I mean, I spend my days here walking around inside myself. And don't get me wrong, I'm starting to feel like I can do this. Classes are good and I've met some neat people, but I feel like there are all of these layers of me that are sitting in disuse except for the times when I'm on the phone with friends or family back home.
Anyway, i'm meeting with the professor tomorrow who I want to be my advisor for my thesis. I'm pretty excited. I still haven't heard back from Marvel or McSweeney's, though.
It's probably predominantly because it's fiction, but I don't know. Part of me wonders if I should stay out here for a while after school ends, just to get a job somewhere and feel like I really lived here, instead of feeling like I commute in for school and shopping (and, apparently, movies). I don't see that happening, though. I mean, there are a ton of jobs and all, but I guess I feel somehow transparent without the people who are a big part of me. Like, I spent all this time and emotion investing in where I lived and the people who I love, and even if there's some media idea of how young people should want to run off to New York to work toward some kind of revolution, I really don't think I want to. I mean, I spend my days here walking around inside myself. And don't get me wrong, I'm starting to feel like I can do this. Classes are good and I've met some neat people, but I feel like there are all of these layers of me that are sitting in disuse except for the times when I'm on the phone with friends or family back home.
Anyway, i'm meeting with the professor tomorrow who I want to be my advisor for my thesis. I'm pretty excited. I still haven't heard back from Marvel or McSweeney's, though.