*sigh*
I love my family, I do...but sometimes I really wish I could just kick them out of the house and have it to myself at times. I want to create things but I just don't have the space to do it here. I feel artistically cramped, so to speak, and therefore, I art less. I really like working downstairs, but I can't really do that with the kids all over the place (my mom babysits my nieces), or my mom constantly bugging me. She wonders why I hole myself up in my room...it isn't intentional, and I'm not being antisocial. I just have stuff to do and my room is the only place I have to do it. Or my studio, but it's freezing down there right now. XD
Oh how many times I wish I had my own place...and my mother gives me crap about it when I go away! I swear, she'd be happier if I was out of here, but at the same time, when I want to go visit friends to get away for a while, she bugs me about them never coming here. *facedesks* Yet if my friends came here she'd have to entertain them, because...that's what moms do. XD And I hate inconveniencing them and having to ask them for permission to have others over when I can just go elsewhere. ;) I told her and Dad outright I just like to get away from them for a while sometimes. After all, I see them EVERY DAY. How often do I see my friends? Once a month, if that? (You all live too far away! <3) I don't mean it in a rude way, and I've said that too, and also have made the point to tell them "Isn't it nice when you guys have the house to yourselves for a while? Or go away without me?" And it's like she understands but she doesn't understand. It's just one of those topics where no matter what the option you give her, she's never pleased. My Dad is pretty "wahtever" about things and very lax, so he doesn't complain as much as she does. XD
Point is, I feel stagnant artistically, and I think part of that is directly related to the fact that I live here. Ohhhh how I wish I had the money to move out. *pfffffths*
Oh how many times I wish I had my own place...and my mother gives me crap about it when I go away! I swear, she'd be happier if I was out of here, but at the same time, when I want to go visit friends to get away for a while, she bugs me about them never coming here. *facedesks* Yet if my friends came here she'd have to entertain them, because...that's what moms do. XD And I hate inconveniencing them and having to ask them for permission to have others over when I can just go elsewhere. ;) I told her and Dad outright I just like to get away from them for a while sometimes. After all, I see them EVERY DAY. How often do I see my friends? Once a month, if that? (You all live too far away! <3) I don't mean it in a rude way, and I've said that too, and also have made the point to tell them "Isn't it nice when you guys have the house to yourselves for a while? Or go away without me?" And it's like she understands but she doesn't understand. It's just one of those topics where no matter what the option you give her, she's never pleased. My Dad is pretty "wahtever" about things and very lax, so he doesn't complain as much as she does. XD
Point is, I feel stagnant artistically, and I think part of that is directly related to the fact that I live here. Ohhhh how I wish I had the money to move out. *pfffffths*