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Some times i want to wake up, thinking that this is not real and that I have been living in that i have been in an alternate state of reality. This one sucks I miss him and want him to come back, I want my best friend here with me. I want a person who i can talk to all of the time, not a replacement, never a replacement, just a substitute. I want someone to hug me and to tell me that it is okay and that he'll come back and i want for that to be true, that he's just on vacation. I want to give him one last hug where he is so uncomforatble that he is as stiff as a board. I want to hear our secret knock. I want to tell him that it is time for bed. I want so very much to hear his voice. i want to start it over with less fights and more fun, more quality time.
I want him back
now.
I want him back
now.